left in my own thoughts

now I'm lost..

As I sit outside at night
As I stare at the moonlight
Leaving myself just thinking
Feeling myself sinking

Going through the things I've done
Knowing I've hurt everyone
Wishing that things could just change
Making everything so strange

Writing about how I feel
Wishing my heart would just heal
My love was so easy to steal
I was just never ideal

Wishing I could fix mistakes
As my heart just breaks and breaks
You said you weren't happy enough
You didnt have to be so rough

You knew the right way to hurt me
Making me feel so lost at sea
Now I feel like I'm drowning
My time here is just counting

I've never been hurt this much
I really miss your soft touch
I really miss your soft lips
As my mind just slips