This Is Me

nihil

the first time I saw you

my eyes stuttered along your body

like a tongue trying to find a grasp

on a word, like a flickering light

trying to shine bright again

i tried memorizing your curves

because everytime i looked at you

you were branded white-hot on the backs

of my eyelids

like the red print typed into

my thigh that i can't write over

i keep trying to forget you

but

i know you better than myself

And I have tried so hard