I don't know what it is but when we're alone, there's nothing to say, the silence creeps over us. When I'm around him, my thoughts are like they're frozen, I can't speak or think. It makes me feel so stupid. I normally shut out everyone but he is one of the only people I don't want to do that to. I can't control it, that's the worst part, I have no composure, and when I feel like that, I feel bad about myself. His personality is one of my favorite things, I hate how he doesn't know how I envy him, he has his own state of mind, his own personality. I wish he knew the things I can not say.. -8:30pm
