Reborn

Chapter 1- New Beginning

"He's gonna take you away from me!" he screams at me.

"He's not! He's just my friend!" I screamed back

"You say that now! he's your fucking best friend! he apparently knows you better than me and I agree. we were once just friends Sedna! we were just like you and him! and you know what pisses me off the most...when you're best friends with someone of the opposite gender, one of them is bound to catch feelings. I see it in the way he looks at you. I see his actions around you! he fucking loves you!"

"What about her huh? What about those girls that be texting your phone? What about those times you stayed out late until fucking 4 a.m? What about that bitch Tahlia? She doesn't miss a fucking opportunity to tell me that she can have you whenever she wants! You two flirt right in front of my face and you think I'm that fucking  oblivious. Are you fucking serious?"

"I'm so fucking done! those girls are just girls! Tahlia is just one of those girls who are just touchy. You're being dramatic and way too hysterical right now."

I had to roll my eyes at that. I can't believe those words actually came out of his mouth.

"Are you fucking serious? Are you seriously making excuses for a bitch that literally tries to grab your dick? May I remind you that the bitch isn't me. How dare you try to fucking excuse that? How would you feel if I had Kio basically rubbing himself up on me huh? How would you feel if I grabbed your best friend's fucking face and kiss him? YOU would be pissed. I'm not going to stand here and listen to your pathetic excuses and reasons as to why you cheated on me. I'm not going to be gaslit by you."

I know that two wrongs don't make a right but I needed to make my point. 

He laughed which only infuriated me more. 

"Jesus Christ woman, you are crazy! You need to chill and think about the shit you're saying right now. I did not fucking cheat on you! I swear on God, I would never get with Tahlia!" he places his face in his palms and starts laughing.

"Why don't we just end all of this," I said as I'm on the verge of tears. His laughter paused and looked up at me, then he got up. His expression was dumbfounded as if I was speaking another language he couldn't grasp. he grabbed his hair when he realized what I said. his facial expression was mortified, he opened his mouth to speak but it seemed like he couldn't find his words...like he was in disbelief.

"End it? you mean to break up?" tightening his grip on his head looking me straight in my eye.

"Y-yes.." I said looking away trying to hide the falling tears. "If I was enough, you wouldn't be looking somewhere else...someone else to fill in the missing piece..."

"Babe, you can't be serious!" he said taking a step back which caused him to fall back onto the couch.

"We constantly argue about this type of shit. I-i can't take it anymore. Maybe we aren't meant for each other. I don't need this stress. We're supposed to complete each other not break each other. We're supposed to love each other and honestly it seems like we hate each other more than anything right now." 

He stood upright in front of me in the living room in silence. I grabbed my bags and walked towards the front door.

"Goodbye Xavier, it was fun while it lasted." I wiped the tear off my cheek. As I walked towards the door, he grabbed my arm.

"What are you doing? let go of me!"

 I heard him mutter something under his breath.

"what?" I ask looking worriedly at him

"you're not leaving me." he finally spoke up but I couldn't hear him well

"What..?"

"YOU ARE NOT FUCKING LEAVING ME!"

This scared me, he yelled at me. he never did that before...at least not like a maniac. 

is he really that upset that I'm leaving? Why would he cheat if he was going to act like this? did he think that I wouldn't break up with him? That I wouldn't leave?

I didn't want to show him that I was hurt or that I cared because this wasn't the first time this happened but this will certainly be the last. I manage to release myself from his grip, took my bag, and left. While I was outside, I heard glass crashing and things falling. He is having a tantrum. I used to it though. He always carries on like a baby when he doesn't get his way. I hurriedly walked towards my car n drove off.

As I was driving away in my car I couldn't help but smile. A weight has been taken off my shoulders. That was it...The end of that rollercoaster of a relationship. I was tired of not feeling that I was enough...I was tired of second-guessing myself. I was tired of being alone in my relationship.

This was the new beginning of my life.  I'm ready to be happy.