So I accidentally send a picture of my self harm into a group chat with 6 of my (meant to be) closest friends but none of them have done anything or spoken to me about it. They all treat me like shit, let's be fair. I get left out all the time. I'm that friend that isn't invited to the big meal with everyone. I don't turn up to school sometimes because I just get out of bed, they just tell me I'm skiving and I'm just lying and shit. I hate the way they make me feel and I can't just go get new friends. I try to ditch them but I can't because I still love them and when we're one on one it's great. It's just when other people are about eg. School. They're honest to god the biggest assholes and I can't do anything. I'm in year 11 so some of them are leaving and my only hope is it'll get better but that also means the one person who is actually there for me is leaving which I hate. I can't hang around with them at school though because I don't like their friends and I just couldn't be with them.
