Dreamscapes;

you're still here;

everyday, i lay here and reminisce the times with my lover.
that's what im doing right now.
my lover, they passed away 4 years ago.
i should probably be over it but how do you get passed it when you were so deeply in love with this one person. and now they're just... gone.
i know it's not healthy to just lay here and mope over the past with someone.
i decided that maybe i should go out and do something. a walk. a walk sounds nice.
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i told my mom i was going for a walk and headed out.
i decided to go to my favorite park.
oh, the memories are vivid as ever here.
me and my lover use to come here everyday after school and just lay with each other.
this isn't helping.
i went over to the exact place we use to lay and just fell backwards into my place.
imagining them here made me feel like i was in heaven.
i just missed them to no end.
as i was laying there, i looked over to my right and there was a tall rose just laying there.
it confused me because i didn't see it there before.
i picked it up and sniffed it.
this wasn't any regular rose you find in the park.
it had that scent.
oh no that scent.
everyday my lover would give me one rose and they somehow made each rose smell like cherry's, my favorite.
this rose smelled like a cherry.
i was so lost, the only roses in the world that smelled like cherry's was my lovers roses.
i took that rose as a sign that just maybe my lover is still around here somewhere. maybe not physically but emotionally and maybe even spiritually, they're here. right now.
i kept that rose tight in my hand and turned around and went back home.
7 years after that day at the park and i still had that rose. it never died. just like the rest of my lovers roses.
i smelled that rose every single day. many times a day.
and i know for a fact that, that day i walked out of the park with that rose in my grip, that i had walked away from not only my memories but the spirit of my lover standing right in front of my eyes, leaving them behind.

authors note;
made by~ ice