Go kill yourself, slut.
"Eddie Pilikian?" I shakily look up from the sticky note folded in my lap and looked up at Ms. Burrow, my math teacher.
"Here," I mumbled quietly. Diane looked at me oddly. Her blond hair was put up into a ponytail, her long hair not getting into her face for once. I avoided her gaze, not in the mood for her concerned looks.
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(TRIGGER)
Conceal
Don't feel
Put on a show
Make one wrong move and everyone will know
I breathed heavily, slicing into my arm more. I could hear my adoptive parents screaming at each other from downstairs. "Conceal, don't feel," I muttered to myself as I cut another line. "Put on a show. Make one wrong move and everyone will know."
I walked to my bathroom and turned the water on full blast, quickly putting my arm under the cool liquid. I grimaced, quietly wincing.
-Flashback-
I was cutting into my skin, locked in my best friends bathroom. "Eddie," I heard Danny shout as he banged on the door. "You've been in there for an hour! What are you doing?!"
I didn't answer him, tears slipping down my cheeks as I cut deeper. My breaths were coming out as shaky as blood poured into the sink. My blood.
The door busted open and I froze in my tracks.
"Eddie! What the hell man!?"
I glanced over at Danny, who had fear present in his eyes. "D-danny, this isn't what it looks like!" It sounded cliche, seeing as it was a very common phrase. He glared at me, "bullshit! This is exactly what it looks like!"
You made a wrong move Eddie, now your 'best friend' is gonna tell everyone that you're a pathetic crybaby that cuts for attention because you don't get it at home.
I fell to my knees, sobbing. "I-i'm sorry D-danny. I know t-that this is unforgivable, b-but please. I'm beg-begging you, pl-please don't tell anyone." He knelt down to my height and put a hand on my shoulder before I was brought into a hug.
"Cmon, lets get you cleaned up. And don't you ever think that I'd tell about something this personal. I got your back and I won't ever leave you."
-Flashback done-
I thought about that night over and over when I was laying in bed. Danny, he said he wouldn't leave me and yet, he's dead.
