Everyone left me... console can be seen from nowhere.
That love still kindles, although it is still unexpressed.
I'll lie on the green grass, putting the jar in front of me here,
And I will put my sadness below me as a pillow.
Come on, voyager - sit in front of me here.
Why do I have these bowls? Let's drink together!
Have I bought life? No, I took it in advance,
And I'll pay it honestly even if I go to the heaven.
If somebody thinks I'm now left and I'm fallen,
No, the contrary, I rose up to the eagle in skies.
I left the pain, tearing the unbreakable chains,
I caught the freedom which they haven't gifted me freely.
I see your face. I think you must seem more tormented...
Try, maybe you can fly as high as I am.
With blue curtains let us cover this life...
What else can we do? Let us dream and let us calm down.
"How can I fly when I'm so hungry and barely standing?
I can remember nothing but the food I always dream of".
"Do you remember what you ate before, how you lulled hunger?"
"How can I forget when I gnawed sole bones, taken from wolf pups?"
"That's what you would do, if you're carrying sins on your shoulders.
Confess your sins and ask the high Lord for his mercy,
And if somebody loved you with their whole pure heart,
Do not be late, go to them, they will forgive you.
But why am I advising when I carry bigger sins myself,
I'm fighting with tempts that torture my soul so severely.
Sometimes I defeat them, flying high filled with pure beliefs.
Now I have them here, they cannot escape from me".
"I cannot believe anymore in chances of winning,
I am now empty, I have nothing to defeat now.
What do you demand? Let me better understand your wish,
If I have some sins, the Lord will make me pay for them there.
Don't put yoke on me, let me just drink your tasteful wine.
The days that are left let me pass as I always dreamed to.
I will let them take my sadness that passed on me from my deepest infancy,
I still will not come on this world for a second time".
Batumi, Adjaria, Georgia.
1977.
