Me and My Thoughts

1.

So it started a long time ago.
Like a very long ti- no just last year.
Well I thought I had everything, to the friends and family and relationships and life. But I didn't.
Everything was a lie and it took me a while to realize that.
I realized that many people don't like me and that many people just don't like me being around cause I weird.
Today in school I was having as bad day. It good at one point but it does when I saw my ex. So that person is also one of the reasons of my Depression.
I thought I was over them but something happened and now I'm just heartbroken from it and I thought that they actually cared but it was all a joke. So yeah. That's all for today

Have you ever had family that you expect to actually cares cause they say they do but really they don't. Yeah basically everybody in my family. I understand if they try to talk but who would want someone like me in thier life.
I'm weird, annoying, ugly and stupid.
I'm always in the wrong and I don't know shit. I'm always annoying people when                         I'm trying to keep up with my happy facade. I wished to be happy for months but that never happened. I would try to make myself happy but it would but won't work.
I have a tendency to switch topics in every conversation somehow. I absolutely hate when I do that. I can't help it, it just kind of happens sometimes.