I can still remember the day I texted you,
I said "Hi" and you replied "who you?"
I didn't tell you my name because I'm afraid.
I'm afraid that if I'm going to tell you, you might be disappointed.
You asked some questions, but I remained silent. I didn't open up to you.
Not because I'm that type of person that has a secret,
But because I know, if I'm going to open up about my self to you, you will be dismayed.
Dismayed about the fact that I'm just pulling a wool over one's eye.
Many seconds, minutes, days, and even months passed by. We experienced ups and downs, happy and sad moments.
I cried a lot for you even though we are not in a relationship. You let me feel that you love me, so here I am waiting.
Waiting for the day that you'll gonna love me. I know how desperate I am but this is what I want. This is my life and this is my choice.
Call me selfish but this is how I love. I want you to be mine and I know you want me to be yours too.
We promised each other that together, we're going to build our future. I trusted your promises even though promises are meant to be broken.
But now what happened? What did you do? You broke it. You let go first. You leave me alone in the middle of nowhere.
But here I am again, waiting and hoping that you'll come back. Hoping that you'll fix us. But you disappoint me. You taken me for granted.
I shouldn't blame you for my shattered heart. I should blame my self for loving you so hard.
You are the living proof that nothing is forever. Call me bitter but that is what I feel.
Maybe now is the right time to move on. I know it takes time to heal the pain but I will do my very best to forget you.
Thank you for being part of my life. Thank you for making me happy even if it's just for a meantime. And thank you for breaking my heart as well.
I considered this as a lesson. A lesson that I can't forget even if I die. A lesson that I will never forget for the rest of my life.
