Betrayal // 5SOS

Chapter 4

CHAPTER 4

Then I realised. Realised what I was doing. The shirt I was wearing was Ashton's and the smell of his aftershave was still on it. It wafted towards my nose and I flung my eyes open. I rapidly pushed Luke away and sat up. Ashton's best friend. My best friends boyfriend! I looked at Luke. His expression was hurt and sad. "I'm sorry Luke but Ashton...and Ella...we can't do this to them. Well, I can't do this to them." I said. "It's ok, I get it, you're right we shouldn't be doing this." We both nodded and agreed, "but if it's so bad," he added, "then why did it feel so right?" I looked at him guiltily. "C'mon, I know that felt the same to you as it did to me! That definitely was not a one way street! I know it's wrong but I've never felt like that with anyone! Not even Ella..." At this point he also looked guilty. "That doesn't change that fact that it shouldn't have happened. Yes, that was amazing and yes, I did feel something for you but he's your best friend! Doesn't that mean anything to you?" I replied. He cleared his throat and looked straight at me.

"Y/N, I have loved you since the moment I laid eyes on you. It was Niall's birthday party, the night you met Ash. I walked in the room and the only person I could see was you. No one else existed. But then Ash came and swept you off your feet and by then of course I couldn't tell you how I really felt. So I didn't even want to get close to you, in fear that you might find out that I love you. Like it or not, that won't change but I promise I will not tell Ash what happened. That won't help things at all. And you mustn't tell Ella!" He looked deadly serious. "Well...I guess...if you don't tell Ash...I won't tell Ella." I said sadly. I didn't want to keep secrets from her, especially not one as awful as this. "Alright then." He concluded. We sat there in silence for a few minutes. Now that I knew how he felt, I felt so bad for him and he looked really disappointed. I couldn't just walk away. I got up and sat down on his lap sideways and wrapped my arms around his neck. He placed his arms around my waist and pulled tight which felt good and familiar. I whispered in his ear, "I'm sorry, Lukey." then lightly kissed his forehead. There wasn't much more I could give him.

His grip around me started to loosen and I saw his eyelids drooping. I waited until he had fallen into a deep sleep then clambered off of his lap. I lay him down gently and placed a cushion under his head. I took the blanket keeping me warm and laid it over his long body as I softly crept away from him.

I re-entered the house and shut the door behind me. Ella was standing in the corridor doorway. I wasn't sure how long she'd been there. "Oh, hey Ella!" I whispered, chirpily. "Hey Y/N/N," she said sleepily. Good, she hadn't been there long. "Have you seen Luke? He didn't come to bed last night and I'm worried about him."

"He's asleep outside on the sofa," I told her. That wasn't incriminating, right? "I wouldn't wake him though, he seems fast asleep."

"So did you guys talk before he fell asleep?"

"A little bit, yeah."

"Y/N, that's great! I told you he'd warm up to you! What were you guys talking about?"

I needed to think of something fast. "Umm, the tour. About how it's gonna be a little cramped, what with 7 of us going." There, that was ok.

"Oh, please it's going to be so much fun! I'm looking forward to it anyway, you've been before but I haven't! Neither's Sarah! And aren't you gonna love standing in a crowd and having your guy on stage smile or wink at you?"

Well, I don't think Ashton will be the only one smiling at me.

"Yeah, I guess. Listen I'm really tired so I better be getting to bed. See you later!"

"Night bubby!" And with that she went back into her bedroom and I did the same. I shut the door behind me and turned around to look at Ashton, now sprawled out over the bed. I couldn't bare to look at him so I spent the rest of the night on the couch in the corner, tears streaming down my face.