Destruction

Crushed

It's been about 5 mins since Carmella went to go take a shower and her phone has been dinging off the hook. I want to pick up her phone and see who it is but she made a rule where she doesn't go on my phone and I don't go on hers. It seems she always has to be on here phone, 24/7, but yet she barely has the time to text me when we are not together. Before i even have time to think through what i'm about to do, i grab her phone off the bed and unlock it. i click in the message app and find a tread of messages from some person named Josh. I scroll up through the messages just recently sent and messages between my girlfriend and this Josh person. My heart stops and my breathing is hitched, what the actual fuck is this? 

Carmella: babbbbbyyyyyyy, I wanna call you on the phoneeee right noww. 

Josh: then call me babe, i'm not busy. 

Carmella: I cant right now, i'm with Taylie. i'll call you as soon as I leave.  

Josh: okay, beautiful. i love you sexy, better send me that pic soon. i cant wait any longer. 

Carmella: you know i will, i gotta wait till i get out of here. i love you more. 

Josh: okay gorgeous.

i scroll back down, and shut off the phone and set it back on the bed where it was. the water in the bathroom shuts off and i hear the towel being taken off the back of the door. I lay on the bed and put my hands to my face over my eyes. I start to cry and can't seem to catch my breath, soon I hear the door to the bathroom open and I try to wipe my face before she sees what a mess I am.  I look up to see her looking at me form the door from the bathroom, i go to say something but stop, instead she starts to talk.

"Hey baby, are you okay? whats the matter?"

"Nothing..." 

She begins to walk to me and stops at the edge of the bed and sits down. 

"There's something, love. I can tell, I see the tears based in your eyes. plus, your face is all red. 

My mind runs, thinking about the messages i saw earlier, the tears begin to flow and my face becomes wet and hot. She puts her arms around my shoulders and she lays down holding me in her arms. I cry for a good 10 minuets whiles she strokes my head and sings to me. The words slip out like water in a cup.

" who...who's josh?"

She looks at me with her green eyes and I can see the fire growing with hate to me and sits up, pushing me off of her. 

" Why the fuck did you go through my phone? what did I say about that? Hes just a goddamn friend, okay? What can I not have friends or something?"

"n..no baby, I..I'm sorry. I didn't mean to upset y..you. I'm s..sorry." I begin to cry again and she just pats me in the back. 

" awe baby it's okay. He's just a friend, don't worry about it and stop crying it gets annoying after a while."

"Okay, I'm sorry." I wipe my face so I don't make her anymore mad then she already is. Her phine dings again and she picks it up and reads the messages and giggles like a little girl. I wish she got that happy when she talked to me. I go and pick up my phone and scroll through Facebook. She seems to busy to talk to me anyways. She gets up off the bed and begins to put her shoes on, she grabs her coat and throws that on as well. 

"I'm going to go baby, I'll text you, okay? I've got a lot to do today." 

"Yeah, be careful. I love you." 

"Love you too. " 

She then gives me a soft kiss on the lips and heads out the door. She never says I love you anymore, just love you. Maybe she loves Josh now, who knows. I turn off the light to my bedroom and lay face down on my bed, the tears overwhelm me and soak my pillow. I lay there crying for about and hour and  still no texts or calls from her, my eyes become heavy and I'm taken away from reality, to a dreamless sleep. 

A/N: I don't really write much so whoever reads this, comment and tell me what you think.Next chapter will be up soon!