I'm tired of trying and crying, I'm tired of hiding and lying, I'm tired of the messages where you told me you love me, I'm tired of restless nights and the suicidal thoughts that come with them, I'm tired of remembering the time you kissed me on the bleachers, I'm tired of knowing I've lost you, I'm tired of not being able to tell you I love you, I'm tired of knowing that you will probably never read this, I'm tired of the emotions I feel for you, I'm tired of remembering the times you said that you loved me, I'm tired of thinking that you never loved me at all, I'm tired of everybody including you telling me that it's just middle school it doesn't matter, I'm tired of the agonizing pain I feel everytime I look at you, I'm tired of the way you look at me, I'm tired of the pain I feel without your love, I'm tired of not being with you, I'm tired of not being able to kiss you, I'm tired of not being able to touch you, I'm tired of knowing things could have been different, I'm tired of knowing that your happier without me, I'm tired of all of the feelings I still have for you but you will never understand, I'm tired of feelings of love, I'm tired of being left to be alone, I'm tired of being alone, I'm tired of your smell lingering in my head, I'm tired of remembering how your skin felt, I'm tired of the phrase "what was loved is now lost" running through my brain, I'm tired of everyone telling me that this is just a phase and that I'll be okay if that's the case then why am I sill so fucked up?, but most of all I am sick and just completely fucking tired of you....
