what used to be

Broken

LOUIS POV : I can't be alive my ears or my eyes they must be playing jokes on me please let this be a dream I pinch myself and it's real

"I hate you Louis Tomlinson "

Repeating over and over in my brain I can't take this I can't take what I've done to her I broke her an there is no way to fixing it .... Now I feel how broken is to be and because I broke her she broke me

She had left the room but I still stay on the floor head in Knees just crying my eyes out I can't help but cry it's just too hard for me...

Mum comes up to the room a couple of times to check on me or to see if I was hungry but I didn't talk at all , the girls are getting worries about me cause I won't eat or sleep all I do is stay in my room an go I the bathroom , when I see Emily all I can do is cry even harder

Harry texted me a few times to see how I was doing a well as the rest I the boys but I couldn't reply I was too weak to even move all I did was cry ..

It's been three days since she said that too me and it's still replays "I hate you Louis Tomlinson " I cry even harder

I think about what I can do to release the pain and I think back to what I saw Emily doing "cutting " that's it

I actually got up and went to the bathroom and locked the door I sat on the toilet and placed the blade on my wrist I was scared but I needed this to release all my pain so I did it

I pushed down wincing at the pain but I continued but actually I began to feel all my worries go out the window I stayed still and did at least five cuts jut above my wrists as I sat there I began to think about life

I went back to my bed and cried like a baby I couldn't help it she had broken me

My birthday was in two days and I wouldn't be happy and for once I didn't care .....