Why?

Part 1

These stories are ones I no longer wish to read. The stories I have read over a hundred times. The stories I never wanted to be a part of. Yet again these are the stories I've dreamt of writing. The stories about a girl meeting the love of her life. The boy who was perfect for her in every way. The stories of finding the one at such a young age and getting forced to watch them walk away. The kind of story where the final words were final bows after a long day. The kind of story that makes you cry because you can connect with the young girl. The kind of stories that start out with:

Dear Diary,

Today is the day. I get to see him. It's been about 7 months. I miss him so much. The last time we saw each other, I cried after having to leave. I think I saw a tear or two roll down his cheek too. He's perfect. I love him.

That kind of story that the girl that waited for two hundred and thirty-three days to see him once again. To hug him. To see him. To smile. To sing along to his music whether she likes it or not. To take pictures to show all her friends. To do everything that made that seven months and nineteen days worth it. To make walking in the cold for hours worth it. And the spending your day in an unknown city to see him, worth it. To prove to him that he is worth it because all though he is perfect for her, he has his doubts.

The type of doubts that everyone gets such as insecurities and minor setbacks. But he couldn't let anyone see his doubts. He was too strong to show any sign of weakness, whether it be a teardrop or saying, "I can't do this anymore" he could not do it. He longed to prove to her that her doubts could be pushed away by the right person, but he never let someone close enough to get rid of his insecurities. His smile was her world so he never showed her anything but that smile.

Dear Diary, Its me again.. I really do miss him. I don't think we are going to meet after all. It really sucks. I wish it wasn't so hard.

Wishes sent out to the heavens day after day. Until one day where the girl gave up. The girl gave up after waiting 9 months. Her love for him was a timed trial and she will always want to buy the full book. His book. The book of his life, entitled "Why?"