just when I thought it only gets worse

the day I met him

"hey jazzy what's wrong" my best friend, aliana, had asked when I was just staring off into space as usual.

"nothing, I just really dont want to go home tonight." I told her

"hun, you know my home is all yours, but it is friday night and I'm throwing a party sooooo...can I doll you up pretty pleaseeeeee???" she literally sat there for five minutes until I finally said okay and threw a french fry at her messin around.

I was moving in with her in a week after my birthday on wenesday anyway. So I guess I have to get use to all that shit if I wanna get out of that hell hole.

"see you tonight girly youre gunna look sexy tonight when im finished with you ;)"

"youre funny chica ha"

I was just about to get up when this boy came up to me. I got so nervous no guy other than my ex has ever came up to me. WTF DO I DO!

"um hey, I know this is so wierd, but I really could help but notice you I just kinda wanted to say hi"he said

that was actually kind of sweet but my anxiety kicked it and I had no clue what to say. he was actually really cute with gorgeous brown eyes, super tall, he looks Hispanic like me too. I just kinda stared at him speechless...