think

THink think think think think think think all I ever do is think I don't want to think I want to stop thinking all I ever do is think I wish I would actually do something for once but all I ever do is think think think and it's probably the reason I'm still alive because I only ever think and never do I think about what would happen if I stayed outside in the cold all night but I never do it and I imagine the pain and I think it's too much but I never do any work either so maybe I'm just supposed to be a thinker but I don't want to think think anymore because it's hurting me it's killing me I only ever think it eats away at me I want to stop thinking I think of all the pain and suffering and happiness and ignorance and I want to be like them sad for a good reason instead of no reason or worried about their hair and not worried for the lack of a future I have because I never do only think think think I hate thinking but it's the only comfort I get it's my only escape I think of imaginary worlds and imaginary characters and I'm always the hero because I do things no one else does but I'm never the hero I'm never the admired character because all I ever do is think think I know I'm going crazy now and it's horrible I'm watching my own descent into madness but I can't stop thinking why can't I stop thinking and start doing I want to do something I want to be a role model to someone I want someone who cares I want my therapist I want to not hurt myself I want to be okay again I want to be innocent again I want to be okay but I will never be okay because I only think and never do and never say anything only think think think think think think think save me I need help please before I hurt myself someone find me and save me before I stop thinking altogether but I need to think but I don't want to think think think think please I need help I'm dying and all I can do is think think think think think