Words

CHAPTER 1

Words may lead you into,

Deep darkness,

Deep depression,

But,

I can assure you this words are not meant to hurt you.

I lead you to the path that you deserve,

You left me in despair,

You put me in depress,

You deserve better than me,

After all I'm nothing to you.

I end up on missing you,

And you end up on finding someone new,

But,

You already knew the truth,

That You and I can never be replaced by someone new.

Seasons will change,

Sky will get dark,

Sky will get light,

Rain will drop from the sky as you take your path with a tears on your eyes.

Time will come that I'll leave you someday so,

Please don't cry,

Please be strong,

Please smile for me even though you're not mine.

We used to tell sweet words to each other but, suddenly,

The sweetness turns into bitterness,

And that bitterness has never left me.

Death is just the beginning but,

Death is already a friend of mine,

Death is my one-way ticket to freedom,

And now I want my death to come as soon as possible.

I cried so hard when I hear that you already fell in love into someone,

It makes me feel so sad,

It makes me feel so bad,

It makes me feel that you'll never learn to love me back.

I try to be the one that you want but,

I was never good enough for you,

I always misunderstood you,

I can't make you smile,

Even though you never felt the same way still,

I commit every blame just for you.

It was summer that time,

I'm with her sharing every thought,

Telling my best stories,

Then suddenly,

Summer was already over,

Still I didn't have the guts to tell her how much I love her.

You told me that you love me,

You whisper into my ears every dreams that you want us to be,

But suddenly,

You left me.

I cried so hard every single day,

I can't eat,

I can't laugh,

I can't do a single chore.

Months has passed,

I heard a news that you have a new one,

I burst into tears,

Thinking,

Am I not enough?

Is she beautiful than me?

What's her name?

What happened to me?

I cry till my tears gone dry.

Every time you passed by,

I can't resist not to say hi,

As you walk away I'll just stare at you till you're gone,

Because that's what I do best,

Watching you in a faraway distance,

As your shadow leaves no mark.

A friend of mine ask me,

Have I ever been fall in love?

I answer it in my mind,

Yes,

Yes, I do already fell in love into someone,

Who'll never be mine.