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How would you feel?

"Missing her?" I asked Nate when I saw him looking at their pictures on his phone. He immediately turn his phone to sleep mode and snaked his arm around my waist.

He nodded as he buried his face on my neck. "Do you want to see her?" Another nod. I don't know what's with the questions and his silence that I feel somehow jealous.

"Gusto n'ya daw akong maging ninong ng anak nila nila."

"No'ng kasal nila wala kang invitation tas ngayon biglang gusto ka n'yang kuning ninong?" I sarcastically asked him but immediately shut my mouth due to the uncomfortable silence that followed.

"What's with the silence? Gusto mo ba? Hindi naman kita binabawalan." I didn't notice the jealousy and sarcasm that was added on my voice.

I closed my eyes and sighed. Lumayo ako ng bahagya sa kanya and calmed myself.

"Bawal daw tumanggi sa mga ganon. Pumunta ka na." I stood and went to my kitchen. We are in my place, yeah.

I heard his footsteps approaching. I gulped and needed some water. Kung bakit ba naman kasi ganon ako magreact eh hindi naman kami.

Hindi pa kami. Hindi ko naman kasalanan na hindi s'ya nagtatanong.

"My love.." Gosh. Why is it that I always feel chills whenever he calls me that way? Plus the way he touches me.

He wrapped his arms around my waist from behind and buried his face on my nape, sniffing my scent.

"Stop." I warned him because I can feel his hug tightening and he's starting to drop small kisses.

"I'm sorry." I heard him whisper on my ear so I faced him and sighed.

"No need to be." I gave him a small smile as genuinely as I could. "Kailan ba yan?"

He pulled me closer so I slapped his arm hard, warning him as my legs are showing off. Nahihila n'ya kasi yung oversized shirt na suot ko kanina pa.

"I love you." Then he started humming. He likes to sing but singing doesn't like him. Kaya yung ka-gwapuhan n'ya lang nagdadala kapag hinaharana nya ako. Chos!

How would you feel
If I told you I love you?

I was about to smile when I remembered his goddamn bestfriend. Bakit ba kasi nagpaparamdam na naman s'ya?

"What are you thinking about?" He asked as he placed my hands on his shoulders, starting to move while he's still singing.

"Mind sharing?" Tatanungin ko ba? Ang tagal ko ng gustong malaman. Hindi kaya s'ya ma-offend if I ask him if he still loves her?

Masama bang tanungin kung minahal n'ya lang ba ako dahil nireject s'ya ng bestfriend n'ya o mahal n'ya ako dahil ako 'to?

My thoughts were interrupted when he kissed my forehead. He is so sweet but I can't help but ask myself. Shame on me for doubting his love but can you blame me?

"You're always in deep thoughts." I gave him a small smile. "And always answers me with obviously not genuine smiles."

I want to roll my eyes. Napaka-observant n'ya masyado pero never n'yang napansin na iniisip kong mahal n'ya pa rin yung bestfriend n'ya kaya di n'ya ako inaayang maging girfriend n'ya officially.

"Love.." He made me look at him in the eyes but I immediately looked away.

He then planted small kisses on my jawline, to my neck until they turned steamy and I felt him leave a mark. Damn it!

"Nate!" He bit his lower lip and breathed deeply. "I love you, Mandi. With all my heart."

Isn't that sweet? It is, but I still frowned with what he did. I walked towards my room and checked my neck on the mirror.

"Alam mo ng may pasok ako ta--"

"Will you be my girlfriend officially?" Mind reader ba 'tong mokong na 'to? My eyes widen with the sudden question and looked at him through his reflection.

"Ever since that day you told me you love me too, never ko na ulit narinig sa'yo yun. You'll always avoid answering my I love you's. May nagawa ba akong di mo gusto?"

I didn't answer and it annoyed him. He has this shorter-er patience when his questions aren't answered.

"Mandi.." Warning tone pero di ko pinansin. Bahala s'ya sa---

"Hindi ka talaga magsasalita?"

"Wth?!" He carried me to my bed and pinned me onto it.

"Sasagutin mo ba ako o bibigyan kita ng anak para diretso kasal?"

I gulped. He's on top of me. Pinagpapawisan ako at kinakabahan kaya lalong hindi ako makapagsalita. Pero mas lumala nung nagtanggal na s'ya ng damit n'ya. Shet na malagket.

He held my legs and wrapped them around his waist. Goodness gracious! Maikli yung suot ko. He leaned forward, our faces just an inch apart.

"Mandi.." Sht sexy voice. "Answer me."

"W-what?" I stuttered. Fck, I can feel something down there and he even moved closer.

"O-okay. I'm your girlfriend na. C-can you move a-away?" I saw him bit his lower lip. He then buried his face beside mine.

"Ang tagal kong hinintay na marinig yan sa'yo. Kailangan ka pang iseduce."

He then buried his face on my neck. "But I still have questions you haven't answered. Pero masakit na yung puson ko. Damn, Mandi ang hirap magpigil with what you're wearing."

He stood and went to the bathroom. I blushed. Ganon na ba talaga yung epekto ko sa kanya? This is the first time he saw me in an oversized shirt.

Pero teka! As soon as he went out, binato ko s'ya ng unan.

"Aray! Anong problema mo?!"

"Hindi counted yung sagot ko kanina! Ni-seduce mo ako!" Tuloy lang ako sa pagpalo sa kanya until he held my hands and pulled me closer, our faces inch apart once again.

"Gusto mo talaga gumawa ng anak ngayon? Nagseselos ka na nga ayaw mo pang aminin. Tapos ayaw mong--"

"Masisisi mo ba ako? Malay ko ba kung panakip-butas mo lang pala ako." I saw the shock written all over his face. Nevertheless, I continued. Bahala na.

"Malay ko ba kung mahal mo pa pala s'ya tas pinipilit mo lang mahalin ako because you can't have her?! Hi--"

"Hindi ikaw s'ya." Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig sa sinabi n'ya. By that, what does he mean? His voice is cold and I can feel his grip on my hands loosen.

"I never thought you'd doubt my love for you." He looked at me straight to my eyes. I can feel the guilt now.

"I loved her and I love you. I am sorry that you feel that way." He held my cheeks and I can feel my eyes become watery.

"I am sorry that he messed up and made you feel like every guy is the same and would just hurt you. I am willing to prove you that I can be better. I am willing to change your perspective with men, especially with me."

"I'm sorry." Lost for words, that was all I told him. He smiled still.

"Now," he tucked some loose hair behind my ears. "Will you be my girlfriend?"

I smiled, leaned forward to claim his lips and gave him my sweet yes in midst of the kiss.

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