I sit here and wonder,
Are you missing me like I'm missing you?,
I think about you day and night,
But it doesn't seem right,
That I should think of you when I doubt you're thinking of me,
Sometimes i cry,
When it all gets to much,
This want, no this need I have for you,
Why did we want different things,
Why couldn't we have stayed like we agreed?,
Yes I guess I was the one who broke that golden rule,
But I broke it thinking that a month later,
Things would have changed into another golden thing,
It's crazy how you can miss someone to the point it aches like a hot ball in your chest that refuses to go away,
no matter how hard you try and extinguish it and make yourself think you're okay,
I still put songs on my snapchat that convey how I feel,
We used to do that for each other,
Our secret thing that others thought was just us sharing our music taste,
Not realizing it was the lyrics I was trying to show you,
I miss you so much, that the cold feels good to me now,
I no longer cower from the coldness of my hands,
But rather I embrace it,
It gives me something to feel,
I wonder if your feelings were ever real,
Or whether you were using me to seal the deal,
You said it was hurtful I thought that but I refused to apologise
But I felt bad,
Too stubborn to take it back,
I miss everything about you,
My friends tell me to move on,
But I'm stuck on you,
A hole I can't get out of, do i really want to get out of it though?,
Or do i just want to sit at the bottom and wait for the rain to come and drown me?
Maybe my tears will do the job before the rain gets a chance.
Authors note: I'm sorry it's not really a poem, I just went through a breakup and wanted to get my feelings down, there may be more I don't know I just wanted to write, I'm aware it's not the best but it's not meant to be, it's about emotion, not grammar, thank you to whoever may read this ❤
