I Dare You To Love Me

Prologue

I DARE YOU TO LOVE ME

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You have hurt, demeaned and damaged me. Where should I start? I could start at the beginning that's always a good place to start, Right? But instead, I'm going to tell you exactly what this feels like.

This feels like hell. Something deeper. Honestly, I'd rather have my skin peeled off than have to feel this. This? Pain and Betrayal. It's Like our future together that was brutally murdered by you. This Pain? I'm stuck with this. The person that I trusted completely and fully not only betrayed me, but forever destroyed me. How am I supposed to ever believe in anyone again?

I am not a perfect person. However, in this case you dared to walk down the aisle and marry me. You dared to announce in front of our friends and family that you loved me with everything you had and would love me for "as long as we both shall live".

But things happened..

You arranged for me to go to an appointment with you, to which I'd agreed, Because for the very first time. You invited me to your place. And as I look into your eyes.. You broke the devastating news.. That you had indeed been having an affair for 2 years. And fuck. We're married only for 1 year and 6 months.

Caden, My world fell apart. I was utterly distraught. You were my world now – my only lover , and now you had completely betrayed and hurt me to a degree beyond my comprehension. Everything is so hurtful. I am devastated that you decided that our relationship was over and was going to end in such a horrible way, and that you made that awful, emotionless woman part of our marriage. You do say you are sorry, but that really is an empty word for the immense pain that you have caused me. I have lost my husband and my only lover.. my world.. and I am not sure I will ever fully recover from the heartache you have caused me.

Can I travel back time? If you hug me just like you did before. I'll be better. I love you.. so much that it's hurt.

The door to Karen's house swung open after a few desperate knocks on my behalf. A big gray eyes greeted me seeming confused and worried at once.

I was homeless.

"Nate? What's wrong?" She demanded huskily. Traces of worry were plastered all over her pale face. I shook my head as more tears threatened to spill. Without words she seemed to understand that I didn't want to talk about it. She hugged me.. and honestly, I need it more than anything.

She set down some blankets and pillows on the floor. It wasn't as comfortable as a bed, but it was a hell a lot better than sleeping in the bed with my cheating husband.

Silent tears streaked down my cheeks, stinging my eyes and drying across my skin. I bit my lip too hard and licked away the bitter metallic taste of blood. My strength was slowly shaking. Betrayal hurt like nothing else I'd ever experienced. I don't want to accept it. But, It was too much. He brought her flowers which is he never did to me. A photographic memory book with pictures of them together and a necklace for her birthday, took her away to several dates, Took her for a night in a hotel the day after valentine's day.. And all that time caden.. you were lying to me about who you were seeing and what you were doing. I was so trusting. I love you. I trusted you.

It was too much...

Waking up to a tear-soaked pillow was almost as bad as realizing that none of last night had been a dream. It was real. He ended up our relationship and already chose that girl. I was still clinging to the false hope that all of last night had indeed been a nightmare.. But unfortunately, It's not.

As I finally gained the strength to sit up, a yawn took over and I stretched myself.

"Morning Crybaby" Karen mumbled. She stood in front of the closet, Her long black hair was pulled up into a floppy bun at the top of her head.