Therapy session

Nov. 24 2017

Do you ever get that feeling where you know something bad is gunnna happen? Right you probably don't lucky you.
I get this feeling so bad but I don't know why.
My boyfriend is talking to this guy and yeah I'm jealous but I'm also scared he doesn't know if this guy is going to find him and kill him or something worse but it could always be no harm done right?
I just don't want him (my boyfriend ) to slip threw my fingers and I lose him I don't want to do something stupid where I lose him either. And I want him to help me but I don't knowhow to let him, how do I tell him everything that's wrong when I don't even know what's wrong besides I know I'll regret not finding out what's going on Thursday or Nov. 30th.
Even tho he joked around about killing himself then I still get upset and scared that something bad will happen even before he said stuff about it I got a feeling something bad will happen that day. And him being weird about the 30th isn't helping maybe this book will help me tell him what's wrong idk

Or I'm over reacting and nothing's gunnna go wrong and he just has something important and personal for him and I'm not respect. I'm also being a bad boyfriend and I should just calm down