Log: 18 | Updates, Notes and Logs

Short (ish) Introduction

Hey there, Chris here. I'm here to discuss about myself and this book. Also a little bit about my life. If you're just here for the details about the book, feel free to skip my story.

So, I'm a highschooler who likes to read books and comics, watch anime and play video games. I'm in the semi-honors class. The reason I point that out is because being seperated into section based on intelligence was one of the reasons I wrote this book.

Basically, last year I was part of the section that won a lot of competitions and games. It was honestly the best year of my life. We had the perfect amount of smart people, artists and athletes and we had a good and loving teacher who we referred to as our second mother.

Back then, I wasn't depressed, and I didn't cry at night thinking about how stupid I was for not living life to the fullest during the year my life. I used to be happy and cheerful, often the one who shouts corny jokes in the middle of class.

Unfortunately, that happiness only lasted for 9 months. It was rough. I went through the corridors for the last time, the ones I spent 6 years in. I went up the flight of stairs I used for 6 years for the last time, and I said goodbye to the teachers who taught me everything. They  said they didn't care if you were stupid or if you were an idiot, they only cared if you had a good heart and good values.

Graduation day was supposed to be happy, but that night I cried on my pillow. That kind of a rough night would occur often. I'd wake up from a dream and I'd cry myself to sleep.

Skipping the summer vacation and the first 2 semesters, and we're in the present day. 

She's different now. She changed. She used to wear a bright sunny smile before, but now she looks like she can kill a bear with one glare.

She was always cheerful and she always greeted everyone, nowadays she just passes by and says nothing.

I never liked this change. Most people didn't realize, but I did. She was influenced. I want the old her back. It's too late though, I can't do anything.

A few weeks ago, I fought her entire section. There was a seminar one monday morning about mental illness. She was asked by a representative from a rehabilitation center and she asked her what mental illness was.

Instead of responding with the answer she said "our class. " in a joking manner. Don't get me wrong, I'm a man of jokes, but it wasn't another student that asked it was a fucking adult. I wouldn't go that far, if I was her or if I had common sense, I wouldn't do it. That caught me off guard, I never knew she changed THAT much. Her class cheered and screamed instead of reprimanding her.

That night, I made a rant and posted a few pictures about how disrespectful that was. I was mad at most of them, except for my closest friends there (later they revealed that they also got mad).

They confronted me the next day and I gave in. I wasn't the guy who liked to fight so I just apologized. I was weak willed. I was mad, but I still grew up with them. In the end, I was the one who got scolded by them.

Later, one of my close friends their said that after she answered he asked her why she said it that day, and she responded with "oh sorry, my bad" in a half-serious tone and continued to cheer.

He was also pissed and him and some others in their class who also were my close friends supported me.

Nowadays, we just pass by each other in the hallway. We never talk. The last time we talked was three weeks ago, when I bumped into her by accident and apologized. She never answered and walked away.

I think it's pretty tragic. I cry at night. I have lots of pictures not of her, but of my old section. Every time I think of the old days, my chest would hurt.

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So yeah. That's my situation. It's pretty fucked up I know. Now enough about me, let's talk about the actual book. Sorry if you had to comb through all that shit.

This book is gonna contain updates, logs, notes and other shit. The story is gonna take a while to start, right now I'm still constructing the plot. It might come out either next month or a few months from now, depends on how lazy I am and if I have actual free time.

Every time a new chapter comes out, I'll edit a few words to correct spelling and grammatical errors, but it will still contain the general idea.

I'l be adding dates, although not current dates. For example, the first chapter will be released on December-ish but takes place on October, it's just there so I have a clear view of how things flow and you can also use that as a guide.

That is a result of my planning, I plan them on dates so I wouldn't get lost. Also, some of the chapters will take place a few days, a week or an entire month after the last.

I made everything by myself (well, most of it I guess. The cover, plot, and some of the character names were made by me, some names were suggested by good friends.) hence the sort-of crappy cover. I'm still learning though, which reminds me. The cover will also change a lot. I like to update covers.

That wraps it up, and I'll end it after I say a few more things. I don't expect this book to be famous, the most reads I ever got was 700+ which was on my first account. I just wanna tell a story.

I'm itching to tell my story, in hopes that I'll get some closure. I wanna move on from her, but I can't. Or I don't really know how to move on.

Alright, have a good day everyone.

Also the picture up on top was taken IN our school.