I feel myself drowning while I'm breathing. Physically on dry land but my subconscious deep in a sea of emotions. My legs are getting tired of trying to keep my chin above the water. I don't know why i keep trying. The thought of letting my legs stop is the most tempting thing I've ever felt. Strongly thinking of stopping because the unbearable pain is getting to me and i know ill have to give up soon if no one finds me in the middle of this unknown sea. But somewhere in my fucked up mind i know when i stop, if i stop. There is no going back, i wont be able to swim back up to catch my breath. I won't be able to feel this burning sunlight on my skin anymore. Ill be cold and maybe even more alone then i am right now. But there is a slim possibility that i wont be alone. That i find peace somewhere underneath this water.
11/03/17 L.M
