There's some things that's been on my mind recently that I think you should know. You have to understand that sometimes, what you think doesn't translate well to other people.
You have to learn to stop caring. I know you do. You started ever since I cut my hair. But you have to stop caring as much as you did because it's hurting both you and me. You care so much you do anything to try to keep me away from danger. But you have to understand that I need to learn myself. I need to feel sadness, I need to feel despair, I need to do the wrong thing before I can understand that I shouldn't do it.
You have to learn that I'm not you. I don't like things that you do. I don't want things that you do. I don't handle things like you do. I need to feel my emotion. I need to let go of my anger and I can't gloss over it like you want me to. I will never be as religious, as feminine, as much as you want me to be because I'm not you.
You have to learn to accept. Accept change. Accept difference. Accept that I will never grow up to be the happy girl that you want me to be. Accept that I might love a boy, or I might love a girl. I know it's hard to do that because you've grown up learning nothing but that the bible was always right, but you have to know that all I ever want is love and that love can't always come from you.
I know you mean well. I know you're trying your best. But it just isn't working.
