you are 17 at the time________------ Y/N'S POV
*Flashback*
"Mamma mamma look at the rose i got you!" you say as you run over to mom and she looks at you and smiles and says "Y/N this is beautiful ill keep this forever even if it withers." exitment overcomes your body and you jump around and you say "i'm going for a walk m'kay?" she smiles then nodding as if something is bothering her but you ignored it and took off.
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You walked around shingashina and saw a boy with blond hair get pinned up to the wall luckly you know how to fight and you decided to confront the bullies when they noticed you. bully 1 says "oh look this little girl want's trouble should we beat her up too like this usless peace of garbage?" then you say "HE IS NOT GARBAGE PUT HIM DOWN OR I'LL BEAT YOUR ASS!"bully number two then steps up and says "ok lets show this kitty her place." bully number one swings his fist and you dodge then you swing your hand as hard as you can to his groin he falls to the floor caughing and groaning in aggoney. the blond boy looked in awe but when you looked at the blond boy it was to late to see the second bully kick his leg up high and was about to collide with your jaw you thought quickly and you yelled for help and the bully kicked your jaw your vision went all black a few mins in the pitch black void you where met with brightness you looked around to see three kids around you and the girl say "good shes fine" a boy with brunette hair says "yea but did you see her fight?" then the blond boy says "i saw the whole thing cause she saved me." you fully adjust to the light and you get up and you say "whats all of your names i think i should know for saving your friends life." they looked at each other for approval then the girl said "mikisa" Mikisa looks at the boy with brown hair and he says "Eren" then eren looks at the blond headed boy and he says "armin" i looked pleased so i tell them im going to leave to back to my mom and for them to be safe
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I heard a loud boom coming from the wall then i looked up to see why peaple where screaming and i saw this thing with just flesh and my eyes widend when i saw a boulder was about to hit my house tears streaming down my face i run to my house and i yell "MOM ARE YOU OK" then i saw.....the boulder crushing mom and she looks at me then smiles and handed me the rose i gave to her and she says "i'd rather give this to you and your dad will come and get you i alredy yelled for help but it's to late forget about me and RUN i love you" i stood there till she took her last breath then i had anger boiled up inside me then i ran for the boats and i saw armin and the others but when i looked at eren he had the face of horrer so i walked over there to comfort him and i said "parents die too?" i say tears streaming down my face once again and they all looked at me with suprised faces then mikisa says "hey eren we arn't the only one who's parents ded well...exept for dad." then i say "my dads in the survey corps and he is also alive" they looked a little little relieved but I was on the verge of tears yet again
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I woke up in a place that didn't look familiar then I hear mikisa say "Are you awake Y/N?" Then I said "yes where are we? " I question she then says
"We are in wall rose." Then I just nodded as she giggles at my clueless ness.
*flashback ends*
I hate myself for not being there why did I run? I get out of the shower and I look at my body. Anger fuels up inside me as I see the cuts on my legs arms wrists and even my stomach.i looked for the razor blade once I found it I looked at it.then I looked for a part of my body to harm again I'll choose my rist today and I cut my wrist about five times the first cut I cried then after I was done I put gaws on my wrist and then I heard a knock on the door it was armin "y/n it time for training." I took in a sharp breath and shakily I said"ok be there in a few. " he knew what I do to myself so I just told him everything and he would ofton try to stop me.
