transgender ftm

just me *chapter 1*

So when I came out I was 12 and I came out first as being bisexual.. My mom was pretty cool with it but my dad wasn't.. He still isn't.. But haters gonna hate so fuck em.. I'll do me and they do them.. But anyways after I came out everybody was pretty excepting ya kno except my dads side.. Anyways nobody said shit but a few days later I went and got all my hair cut off.. It was like bieber hair style.. It looked pretty cool but it was in the winter so I was really cold.. I had a boyfriend then but I was also talking to this girl that I really fuckn liked.. She never knew how much because she was the first girl I wanted to be with and I wasn't sure how to express it.. But after all that ended I was with a girl named "sally" we were together for almost 3 years but I was a horrible boyfriend to her!! And if she is reading this I'm really sorry I broke u... It's all my fault and some how I wish u could forgive me but I understand that u never will... I really loved her so much to the point when it ended I tried to end my life..... I wish I would've known how good I had it with her and how much she meant to me but I was a stupid kid and had no clue.... So this goes out to her.. I know that I hurt u and I know I fucked up pretty damn bad.... But just remember I'll always love u and want u to be mine again so I can show u the world.... U deserve better and I'm sorry it took me at my worst to figure that out... I hope ur life is wonderful now and I will send u this when I get internet again.... Anyways after her I fucked around on alot of people for the matter fact I was broke and nothing left inside of me.. I still don't.... After she left me everything went to shit and back and all over again... I still to this day regret everything I've done from that point on.... I wish I would've given somebody all of me now and dwelt what I felt with her again.....  She made me the happiest dork on the planet... Now I'm just lost and can barely get out of bed to go to school....