Whatever you want!

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I woke up the next morning daydreaming about the traumatic scene that happened last night. My ankle was still throbbing from yesterday, and I felt like my whole body was being pinned down by rocks. Who would have ever thought Darius would lay a hand on me? I thought it would've been a cold day in hell before he hurt me physically.

Every since I moved out of Cali, I lost touch of a lot of my friends. One of my girl friends Alisha would've known exactly what to do in this situation. I heard from her every once in a while but it wasn't frequently. Even though she's one of my best friends since third grade, she talks a lot and I have things to get done. I knew if I called her, we wouldn't be able to get off the phone, especially with the things I have to tell her. It would take longer than a Monday.

I yawned and the dried up tears stretched my cheeks. Suddenly I felt a hand wrap around my waist.

"Good morning baby."

I slowly turned my head and saw Darius. He must be out of his damn mind if he think he just gone crawl back in here. After what he did yesterday, he should've been sleeping on the couch or out of the apartment. I deeply rolled my eyes at him and scuffed.

"What?" "I know damn well you ain't in this bed with me after last night." "This is my apartment too, if I'm sleeping on the couch bitch you better be sleeping on the floor."

I got out of the bed with a quickness and marched to the bathroom down the hall.

"I ain't got time for you Darius!"

I hollered while slamming the door. I heard rapid footsteps trotting towards the bathroom door after me. I locked the door and backed away towards the shower. He knocked on the door.

"It was a joke, let me in!" "Darius I think we need to separate."

It was a long pause then I heard three loud bangs on the door.

"Whatcha mean separate. Look baby, I'm sorry for yesterday, ok? I was just having a bad day and didn't know how to handle it. Can we please talk this out?" "Why Darius? Why did you just suddenly have a bad day?" "Because I wasn't happy. I feel like we can change that though, that is if you let me in."

I swallowed a glob of spit as my hands began to reach for the knob and the lock. I steadily grew anxious about letting him in the bathroom. The anger I had towards him was unbearable. If it wasn't for the Lord I would have monkey clawed his face off.

"I'm sorry Mo."

I didn't believe that bullshit lie. You could see it in his face that he didn't mean that. He thinks if he apologizes to me that I'd come running in his arms like the idiot I used to be. Not anymore.

"Why should I believe that?" "Come on Mo you know me." "Well apparently not well enough! I never thought you would hit me Darius. Plus you come over here with this bullshit apology like that supposed to fix something." "It's not bullshit!" "What were you mad about Darius? What was getting so under your skin that you had to hit me and nearly rape me?" "I don't know, I just had one of those days." "Well that day costed you to lose a girl."

He lifted his eyes towards the ceiling with misery. He shook his head with his arms folded across his chest.

"You don't even know what you want Monica!" "Well I definitely don't want this!"

He stepped back and gazed into my eyes. He looked as though he tried to read my mind. He came closer to me and my heart was pounding out of my chest. I never thought I'd be this bold to say that to him. My head was spending as he grabbed my shoulders.

"Monica!"

The sound of my name stuck my heart and made me feel like danger was heading my way. It echoed through my head and I backed up off of his grip on my shoulders. I've always been a fighter and it wasn't gonna stop now.

"Are you really gonna leave me? Where are you gonna moved to?" "I ain't moving, you are."

It was an uncomfortable hesitation going on, until my alarm clock went off telling me its time to get dressed for modeling.

"See ya around Darius."

I could feel it in the air that he was boiling with displeasure. I just decided not to care about how he felt anymore. I have a job, I make sure the house is cleaned, and when I have the time, I'm the one cooking and making sure his ass is alright. He never treated me as well as I've treated him. I've always put 120% of effort in our relationship. I never got on him about getting a job because I know how stressful a job is. So I let him live under my roof for free not doing shit. I knew I made a mistake, but in my head at the time, I thought I was only showing love not stupidity.

As I got in the car the radio cut on and I heard the most familiar voice on air. The corner of my lips lifted as the man started sing. The melodies of the song got stuck in my head as I drove myself to work. I wanted to know so bad who it was by that it killed me inside. I hummed and tapped my hands on the steering wheel. I was so excited to find out who the new talent was that when I arrived to my job, I didn't leave the car until I knew who the song was by.

"I want to give a special thanks to the crew Tony Toni Tonè for showing us a good time on air. They're new up and comers so show the boys some love. They are performing in Brooklyn, New York tomorrow, so all you Brooklyn people please show up and support them. Is there anything y'all would like to say to the people who's listening?"

The man who was introducing the boys had the most smoothest low voice that it almost put me to sleep. I continued to listen to get more information about Tony Toni Tonè. I couldn't believe that tomorrow they'd be performing in New York. I guess it's my destiny to meet them, because an artist never caught my attention like they have.

"Well the performance will begin at 8:30pm till 1:45am. It's gonna be at the club underground. It's only fifteen dollars to get in. So bring ya friends." "That's right ladies and gentlemen-" "Be easy!"

The crew shouted over the man at the same time, and everyone in the studio started laughing. I chuckled to myself.

"Wow."

I'm shock that I'm fan girling over some new up and coming singers. I just felt like the song they were singing was unique, and I know they had to have made it. I've never heard a song like that and the way they were singing it, it was so gentle and smooth that I've fell in love with the group. I don't know how, but it have even gotten my mind off of Darius and all the problems I have.

I slid out of the car and darted inside the building of my work place. I checked the time and I only have five minutes to make it down the hall. My heart rate sped up as I sprinted to the room where I take my pictures. Yes! I made it with two minutes to spare. Huffing and puffing I grabbed my knees and tried to calm myself down.

"I'm... Here... Whao!" "Damn girl what happened to you." "Got... in... a rush." "Well calm down, I need to get the camera set up. I was almost late my damn self. Listening to Tony Toni Tonè." "I was too!" "Really? They are some talented ass kids I'll tell you that." "I know right! I just had to know who they were before I left the car." "Yeah and did you hear about the performance they're going to do tomorrow?" "YES! I'm so excited to go and meet these guys, they seem hype." "Maybe we can both show up together. Never mind you probably want to go there with your man." "Oh no honey! I'm perfectly fine with just having you to show up with me at the performance." "Really? Trouble in Paradise?" "You can say that."

I stared down at my feet. Noah glided towards me and rubbed my back.

"Girl what he do?" "Can I tell you later?" "Yeah of course. You can tell me when you ready."

I sighed and a gentle smile was placed on Noah's lips. I glanced up at him.

"What?" "Tomorrow, me and you are taking the day off so we can party like it's 1999!" "Yeah!" "Alright girl the camera should be good now. Let's get to modeling."