October 14, 2017
Dear Ethan,
It's been 4 years, 4 years since I've seen you. 4 years since I've talked to you. 4 years since everything happened.
What did you do to me? You caused this. You did this to me, why? I was perfectly fine before you came into my life. All you did was make me happy, all the time. You were the reason I went out, you were the reason I was social, you were the reason for me. You were perfect.
Or so I thought.
Your dimples are the cutest thing in the world. Your smiles are adorable. Your cuddles were so comfy. Your hugs were warm. Your cheesy pickup lines made me blush. Our late night adventures were exhilarating. Your touch makes me feel butterflies in my stomach. You light up my world. Hell, you are my world. I loved you, and I still do.
Why did you leave? What did I do? I can change, for you...
I needed drugs. I needed alcohol. I needed love.
That was until you came.
You were my drugs.
You were my alcohol.
You were my love.
Every time I was with you, I felt alive. I felt free.
You made me drunk when I was sober. You made me high when I wasn't taking drugs.
I left all the addictions behind to be with you, so every time you entered my house, you wouldn't smell marijuana or cigarettes. So I wouldn't reek with alcohol. I ditched school, not to smoke or stick a needle in myself, or go to a bar with a fake ID to drink away, but I ditched school so we can hang out, so we can have some fun. You taught me to be adventurous instead of being an introvert. I stopped everything for you. And only you. I changed all my old habits for you. I changed myself to be with you.
Who knew you wound up to be my addiction.
People would say that you shouldn't change just because you wanted to be with someone, but that's false. I changed for the better, but guess no one ever changes.
Surprise! I'm back to my old self.
My parents kicked me out at the age of 16 when they found my secret stash of marijuana. They didn't want anything to do to me. My brother didn't want anything to do with me...
If they only knew the truth.
Here's a little background story I never told you...
