Wasted Time

Chapter One

   "Okay we here by sentencing you to death by electric chair may God have mercy on your soul". The judge says as he pounds his gavl while looking directly into my eyes. I look around the room and see all the families that I hurt in tears but with smiling faces and the ones that love me in disappointment. I know I done wrong I took the lives of my ex girlfriend and her boyfriend but I was also satisfied because I got my revenge seeing them with fear as I tried to kill them brought me pleasure. Let's start in the beginning the start of where my life went down hill this is my story. 

   My name is Nathan Smith I was born on July 19th 1995 I was twenty-two when I killed them but first let me tell you about my life. Well I was raised in a pretty bad environment in Northern California. My father and mother always fought constantly and then when I was six years old my father killed my mother and I seen it. I saw my father grab that knife while seeking up behind her grabbed her head and slit her throat wide open. I saw my mother grasbing for air as she hold her open wound and my father just sat down on his favorite chair turned on the TV and took a drink of his cold whiskey. I was thinking how can my father do something like that to his own wife my mom the mom that tried her best to put food on the table the mom who gave up everything to make me happy. My father never worked he always sat around the house drank and smacked me around telling me I'm a no good son of a bitch. My father wasn't the best person in my life hell he can rot in perison for all I care. I soon found out that my mom was cheating on him for about a year but who can blame her for having a husband that bad in her life I understood why she did it, but soon I also found out why my dad did it as well. I knew why my father killed her yes he was a big cunt and to lazy to find a job but he never cheated he never laid eyes on another woman he was always loyal but to my mom that wasn't good enough because of the way he treated me. I'm an only child so I was always lonely in school I always got bullied on and picked on for not having a mom or a dad because I had to move in with my grandparents. So they called me orphan and that nickname stook by me until I finished high school. Now my grandparents are really nice and hard working people my Grandpappy Joe and my Granny Molly. They loved me and took care of me when no one wanted to, they took me in to their home and I'm forever greatful. One time I was running home because I was being chased by bullies my grandpa Joe saw me running so he hid behind the bushes so as we went behind the bushes my grandpa Joe came out with a shot gun saying "You little bastards better leave my grandson alone or I'll shoot off your ballsacks and hang them as a thropy". As soon as he said that the bullies ran away from me and never bothered me again. I was about sixteen when that happened and I still remember that because that's when my grandpa saved me from the bullying. That was my grandpa always protective and my Granny Molly ah Granny she was a delight to my heart a real humble woman who always made sure I was fed and getting my homework done. She never hid something from me she was always straight up with me. I remember one time where my dog Wolfy died because he got ran over and instead of her lying to me she came in to my room sat me down looked me in straight in the eye and said "Honey your darn dog went in to the street and darn get ran over" now it may seem funny but that's how she talked. Now I loved that about her because I knew she will always be open with me no matter how bad or good the news is.

   I'm very thankful that my grandparents didn't die and are still alive but I'm not thankful for is that they have to watch their grandson get electrified. The kid that never got in trouble and was always nice to people is now getting sentenced to death all because of love now love is a funny thing there is only two kinds of love, so much love that it hurts or just the right amount of love that keeps the love train moving. Its like this when you love a person and you give it your all its soon to be brunt out but if you wait and take baby steps it'll last. Still don't get me? Will put it this way you have a fire with some coal you put all the coal in at once the fire will go out and you won't have any left, But if you put coal in little by little then you'll never run out of coal. Now that we got that out of the way we can now start the story shall we?