a taste of sunshine

01

(Talking about morning and past)

I was sitting in the corner waiting and waiting for the next meeting to come. She always comes around in the morning right before she gives me breakfast. She beats me till I'm black and blue. And she goes upstairs and brings down my slice of toast cold oatmeal and raisin juice for breakfast. Then she bandageds me up. And says that she's sorry that she didn't mean it and that she got angry. I know she's lying but sometimes she just seem so innocent so nice even sweet.

She used to not be like this. She used to be sweet she used to be nice and yes she even used to be innocent but every since my dad left for the Army When I was 2 years old she's been a monster she's went mad. she stuck me in the basement , her own child, and I haven't seen smile on my cold black and blue skin and years. I'm pretty sure my dad died got sick killed even but God do I miss him. I wish he would have never left us wish he would have never left me with her.

I haven't been to school so I can't tell anybody she never lets me upstairs so I can't call anybody. I just stay down in this crummy basement all alone well except for the times when she comes down to hurt me. Sometimes I imagine that little puppies nipping me. Wen she punches my face or when she kicks me,burns me,or when she cuts me.

But I know its just a lie... I wish things were different.,but there not and I think they will never be...

(Now)

I was walking around the room trying to get my daily exercise. Although she hurts me she will not weaken me its been so long since I was small and weak. I started getting strough Wen I was 12... I quit walking and started running...

My birthday is in 5 days.. You may ask how I know this well she sorta cares about me she puts a calendar down every year but it so hard to look at because it has pictures of me and my dad and then just him... It makes me think of him.

I just got done when she came down. "Hey you stupid b***h" she said
"Hi loving mother" I said sarcasticly.
"What do you think you were doing I told you not to run down here you dumb a**" she yelled... She paused and started crying and said nicely. " I did not mean to call you those words *sobs* you were going to slip and fall and I didn't want you to fall sweetie" ( its not ok you need to leave,I was thinking) Its ok I guess but if your really sorry plz take my outside? ?? I said in a pleading way.

Even as said those words I knew the answer... She stopped crying and the look in her eyes went from sad to deathly mad and scared. She looked in my eyes and struck me in the side of my face and screamed "don't you ever say a thing like that again you f***ing devil!!!!" I just stared at her ,with my already bruising cheek, while she continues to scream,shout,and slaps and kicks.