My heart has been ripped into a billion shreds. The pain is overwhelming and I can't go 3 second without water falls crashing out of my eyes and down my inflamed cheeks. Broken.
Every time I blink everything from the past 48 hours runs through my mind. It's torchering me. The physical and mental pain is like a death sentence in hell.
I can't focus.
There is a distorted fuzzy figure always behind me reminding me but not just reminding me mocking me. It teases me and plays with the strings of my fragmented heart. My happiness being so damaged I am unable to smile anymore. Once a joyful young lady with not a care in the world is subjected to the painful and harsh reality of the thing we call life.
The same questions keep rolling around my brain, "why now and why at such a young age?". Incapable of processing my feelings I bottle them up. They build and build. My mind becomes so distorted with blackness, hurt and anguish i feel like i will explose whether it be anger or sadness i dont know
It feels like demons are plucking out all the good memories and feelings and replacing them with fear and displeasure
My eyes are swells and vision is blurry. All I can do is cry but that doesn't get me any where; it doesn't fix anything. Every morsel of hope has been crushed: oblivorated into nothingness. A empty void has been left in my soul
All this from one single thing but that's all it takes a second and it could all be over or change or be destroyed. That's how unfair life is. I don't know how people go around always happy it seems impossible. What is there to be happy about?
