Lost Lonely

Losted lonely

I cut my wrist.
I hurt myself in everyway.
STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm not doing that.........
I'm not a fool to hurt myself over a unknow.
But, that days...........like really.............
for the first time I get blush, I was too sad, I was too happy, I was too excited.
During our conversation whenever he replies me back. “ My heart beats so loud and so fast that my ear could hear it”. Really..........
I was too young when I enjoyed talking with him.
But, I don't know what is love?
I know it just feel.
When my mind grown up “ I feel something ”.
Is this........LOVE.........
......uhhhhhh......hmmmmm.....YEAH..
Our messages was continuous but with unknown .
All of a sudden,
Misunderstandings create between us .
I remained half and slowly, slowly
our distance became wide.
Again, recreating it closer “he was avoiding ”.
Cause he like staying with misunderstandings. That's hurt really.
I felt......he was wrong.....No....I was wrong.
I thought he feels for me as I feel for him .
And for the first time again I got hurt with strong emotions too.
When he said I don't feel for you and that's enough.
I found myself in dark end,
there I could hear only my dripping tears falling down.
I scream so loud as much as I could with my blank face.
Reminding again the strong feeling of him,
I came out with hope.
There were many hopes, but there was his ego too facing me.
I fought in everyway but he burst my all hopes.
I feel like.......nothing.........
What happened, I can't explain because, I'm losted lonely.