Destined (Misha x Reader) Sequel to 'My Everything'

What happened.

That's the sequel to the book 'My Everything'. So if you haven't read this yet, I would really recommend doing this first. But otherwise here is a little summary of what happened: You met Misha after he broke up with his wife and you two came together. Your life seemed perfect until Misha had a car accident. But in the end he recovered from that, you wrote a book about your life and a baby was on its way. And that's where we are now ;D

"Are you ready?!" Misha was yelling upstairs. "Yes, I am coming." you answered. This was the 7th convention you went to in the past half year. After you had lost the baby you and Misha traveled a lot to keep yourself distracted. And what could have been better than all the cons for this? It hurt and you blamed yourself all the time. Even through the doctors, Misha and everyone else was telling you that it wasn't your fault, it still felt like it was. How could your body or whatever not want the baby? What was wrong with you? These questions kept popping up in your head. You had lost your boy in the 23rd week of pregnancy. One week before it is unlikely to lose a baby. One week and you were feeling safer and safer with the passing time. Sure, at first everyone is worried if a pregnancy will went well and if the child will be healthy. But back then you were already positive that you will give birth to this little one. That's why it hit you even more. Out of nothing you started bleeding and Misha brought you into the hospital. But all they could do was to record the death. The following 6 hours where the hardest in your life. After the baby was already big enough you had to give birth to him. It would have been a boy. And since then you were missing your little son every day. But the point was that it was not only your son. It would have been the son of you and Misha. Something you two had created together. And now something just took it away from you. 

So all you could do was travel. Sure it was some kind of running away. You knew that. But what other option was there? To cry every day for the rest of your life? To curl up together with Misha under a warm, soft blanket and never stand up again? Both wasn't possible. You had to life. And if not for yourself than for your son who never could. You have to live his life now. You wanted him to be free and that he could have lived the life he wanted. Now you had to. 

You brought your suitcase downstairs to Misha and he reached out his hand "Come on, I will take it!". "No, it's okay! I can carry it myself." You smiled at Misha. Since what happened he tried to be extra careful so that you had to do nearly nothing. But it was okay. You were still the same person and you were still able to live a normal life. Or at least you told yourself. Anyway it was nice of Misha and you were so happy to have him. You could never imagine being with anyone else. 

And you knew it hit him too. He had wanted a second boy so badly. And after you two found out that it was going to be a boy Misha got so excited and called Jensen and Jared almost in tears. He wanted this child just as much as you did. During the pregnancy he always told you how he wanted to show your boy how to build furniture and make jam. He wanted to read him stories and see him growing up. "I am sure he will have your eyes" he always said, because he loved your eyes so much. You of course secretly wanted the child to have Misha's eyes, because gosh have you ever seen them?! They where stunning. But you never told him, you just watched him speak about your little boy. 

You had packed all your stuff into the car and drove of to the airport. It felt like you were almost living there in the last few months. You hardly ever saw Maison and West during this time. At first you both didn't know how to tell them that there little brother was gone. And then you were just to busy with traveling that it would have been too complicated to pick them up from Victoria every time you were around. Because if you weren't traveling you lived with Misha in Vancouver. You had rent a little apartment up there with hardly any furniture in it. But this didn't matter to you. It was enough. It was enough for you and Misha to be together. And even through you knew Misha missed his children and you really wanted to give him the opportunity to see them soon, you were glade he didn't. Because as much as you loved Maison and West but you knew it would hurt you. To see the children of Misha and someone else who managed to create some. Something that you couldn't give Misha. It was a terrible thought and you felt totally selfish. So you tried to shake it away and think about this after the Con. But it kept going this way. One Con after another, driving up to Vancouver, Misha shooting, not trying to think about what happened. This was your life now. You know you had to change that. But where should you start? 

Note: I hope you liked this first chapter! They are always difficult because you just have to start somewhere, right? But I hope you will come back next week for the second one! I would really appreciate it :)