Alive and Lost

One Day Later

"We did it. We won. The Reapers are dead. And Shepard is... gone."

Kaidan thought in his mind. After Commander John Shepard decided to destroy the Reapers by destroying Earth, nothing was done to the Normandy to go find him. Sometimes, Kaidan wished it was him instead of John. He would still be alive even though Kaidan would be watching the Commander's moves from above.

"Shepard... why?"

The one question was blurted out from the dark-haired man's lips. His bloodshot brown eyes were still letting tears flow albeit it was painful to let them out. With each tear, Kaidan felt his heart shatter more than it ever did. He reread his unreplied message to the Commander from when the two lovers interacted on Horizon. Holding the datapad which bore the apology message, Kaidan sat on his lover's bed. He had always thought of what would have happened to the two of them.

A little house in Vancouver, near where Kaidan's parents lived. One to two children playing in the yard with a dog of some breed. Either a husky or even a german shepherd. Kaidan choked up at the thought of what he and John could've had. He dried his bloodshot eyes and walked out of the Commander's quarters, tossing the datapad on the bed before he opened the door. When he did, Liara T'Soni was there.

"Major, we found ou- Are you okay?"

Her calming voice soothed his senses, but he shook his head. She could sense that he missed Shepard, considering how much the two of them loved each other dearly. Liara, not one usually for touching humans, pulled Major Alenko into a hug. Kaidan relaxed in her embrace, shaking his head.

"I miss him so much, Liara. More than anything else."

Liara nodded as the Commander was a huge part of the Major's life. She wanted Kaidan to be happy, and she knew he wouldn't be happy until he knew that either Shepard survived or the crew of the Normandy found his body.

"Don't worry Major. Soon, we can get off of this planet and get back to Earth. We'll look for Shepard when we get there. But for now, we need to worry about the Normandy."

Kaidan nodded and stepped out of the friendly embrace between the asari and him, checking the notes he had written in his omni-tool. He would try to contact the Citadel to see if they could send over some more resources to fix the Normandy.

The first item on his checklist was to find out how bad the damage was until Joker called over the intercom inside the ship.

"Yeah baby! Major, we are getting some minor feedback from the engines."

Kaidan's face lit up with a small smile. The engines were working, even if they were working for a short amount of time. All of a sudden, Specialist Traynor was at the Commander's door.

"Major Alenko? I was told to give you this. By an unknown person."

She held out a box, a small box at that. He held it in his hands and looked at her. He nodded as a sign of thanks, and she left him in the corridor of Deck One. He went down to the CIC and went to visit Joker in the cockpit.

"Hey Joker, you said the engines are working?"

The major asked the pilot, the pilot nodding his head with excitement. Joker usually wasn't this happy since he found out that EDI had put herself into Dr. Core's body and became his girlfriend.

"Yeah! We could get to the Citadel from here with the engines. Until they would need to be fixed. Which will take about a couple months. But don't worry, Major. We'll find him."

"Him. Shepard. The love of my life."

"Good. If anyone needs anything, I'll be in Sh- my quarters."

Kaidan went back to John's quarters, sitting on the bed that the two of them used to... make out and have sex on before the fight against the Reapers.

"Please, Shepard, please be alive..."
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John Shepard had done it. He had finally done the impossible. He destroyed the Reapers, a species of alien whose primary job was to "cleanse" the galaxy of all the other species that survived and thrived every 50,000 years. At the cost of being completely shattered by rubble from the now broken Citadel. He blinked, his bright blue eyes shining with a final happiness for what he had done. He couldn't speak nor move for every motion gave him pain due to all the broken bones and dislocated joints that he had. He probably had some popped blood vessels from the collision with the ground, he assumed. He was trapped in a horrifying darkness that encased his body and felt a wave of sleepiness take over his body and he fell asleep, almost like hibernating during the winter.