Kits Personal Diary!

August 30th, 2017

My life can be a total mess to somebody that has no clue how I work. My cousin, Scarlet could probably agree to that, even knowing me.

So, I feel like I'm going to scream. My uncle gave me this letter and told me not to tell my cousin about it...
She's going to find out eventually. Especially when Camryn comes over to hang out. Like, the fuck? His mouth is the size of Texas. Its huge.
I love Cam and all, but seriously, he needs to learn how to shut his fucking mouth once in a while.

Me and Camryn have been dating for about a year now. We met by accident at school.

I think he ended up finding my phone and hunting me down to give it to me. And we ended up becoming friends after that. He comes up to me in English one day and asks me, "Hey, can I come over after school today?" I found it odd, and told him that I'd have to get my cousin and we'd walk to the house together. Me and him ended up talking and playing board games in the living room all night that night. It was actually pretty fun, and I miss him a lot since he moved.

He moved away and never told me where he went. We still kept in contact through Skype and text, so that helped. I could still tell him that I loved him and comforted him when he needed it. Even though he comforted me more than I did for him.

I have issues with how he told me that he was moving. He sent me a text message while I was at school, telling me that he loved me and that he wouldn't see me for a good while. He also mentioned that I could Skype him whenever I felt, and that he'd be there for me, and that he was moving. Quite a heartfelt message, with a sad tone to it.

Talking to him this afternoon made me feel better. It made me feel like I wasn't quite as alone before.

When I hold his hand, I feel secure. When we hug, I feel welcomed. When we kiss, I feel like I can be myself not limited to judging eyes. I don't think that anybody else has ever made me feel this way. To be perfectly honest, I love him, and I don't ever want to let him go. Maybe in doing so, I'll lose a little bit of myself in the process.

Date end: August 30th, 2017; 9:15 p.m.