Hi. I'm Jewel.
These are my poems that I wrote when I needed to vent.
I'm sharing a piece of me with you so please don't plagiarize.
And I hope you like them.
-J.L
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I wanted you to believe in me, comfort me, be there for me.
But you did the opposite, pushed down on me, labeled me.
I was constantly choked by the words of my peers
And inflicted those words on myself, eventually feeding off of the pain of others.
I slowly became you.
Something I never wanted to be.
Being looked at as second best
And being overlooked by the people I see the most in.
Pushed to the side by the people who carried me in their wombs, arms, and backs.
I see the model.
Of complete and utter love.
Family dinners, intimate talks, dinner dates.
And here? Emptiness.
Emptiness in my heart, hands, lips, text messages, and phone calls.
You say, "Be grateful! We gave you so many things."
But what I need is, "Be grateful. We give you so much love."
And maybe you show it and I never see it.
You take me to football games and pick me up from practice
But eventually,
You yell your anger, pain, and frustration at me.
And sadly, I do the same.
Tell me? What do I have to do for peace?
Peace in my heart, hands, lips, text messages and phone calls.
And most importantly.
What do I have to do for love?
Love in my soul.
-Jewel.
