Overtaken (Gyler / Gerard x Tyler)

The note

Dear Tyler,

You meant everything to me. You're the reason I'm proud to be gay, and the reason I stayed alive for so long. But, I knew deep down that I wouldn't last. You just went out, so I'm writing this to explain my actions, and to remind you why I fell in love with you, even after my past heartbreak.

Remember when we first got together? One year after Frank broke up with me, leaving my heart shattered, you came along and started to put the pieces back together. We ended up dating, and I felt as if I was fixed. Like I had become myself again, but things can only stay that way for so long...

About one month ago, things started going downhill again. You noticed and tried to help. Thank you. You did help, you really did, and I can't thank you enough for that. I know you tried, but your help couldn't save me this time. I promise this isn't your fault. The terrible thoughts and feelings just overtook me.

I was overtaken, and there's nothing you or I could do about it. I tried so hard to stay above the water and avoid this, but I couldn't succeed. I know you can probably relate, as you were in my position in the past. That is one of the things I loved about us. We could relate to one another, and help each other through the pain of life.

Being with you was one of the best points in my life, and I cherish that. I don't want you to feel pain from my death. I caused you enough pain already, with the scars, and always keeping you behind. I never wanted to cause you pain like that, and I don't want to cause you anymore pain with this.

I love you, Tyler Joseph. But I beg you to move on after this. I really don't want you to mourn over me. I'm worthless. I didn't think it could get this bad again, to be honest. I'm shocked I stayed alive after Frank. Hell, I'm surprised I was alive before Frank. I was caught up in drugs, alcohol, and I was cutting. Things were so bad for me, but I got better, but of course it didn't stay that way. I never stayed mentally stable for more than a while.

You always cared so much about me, sometimes you would forget about your own needs. I shouldn't have done that to you. I know you were only so protective out of the kindness of your heart, but I feel it was partially my fault. With all the shit I had going on, I'm surprised you kept up with me like you did. You have no Idea how thankful I am.

I guess, I am going to end things here. Thank you for being there when I was alone, and loving me when nobody else would. I love you, Tyler. I can't even express how much I love you, and I am so sorry it had to end this way, and I'm so sorry you had to find out like this. Please forgive me.

Love,

Gerard Arthur Way