i know you don't love me, but i'll still claim you are my first love.
because i loved you.
or maybe i still do.
i wish i didn't, and i wish you weren't, but you are and i did.
i still can't face you without thinking about everything we could've been.
everything we weren't.
i tell everyone i'm over you.
i lie to everyone.
i think you know, you use it against me.
i know i don't know how to handle it, but i didn't know how to feel about it, about you.
i really wish we could just hit rewind.
i wish you weren't repulsed by me.
i stopped texting you because i always overthought about it, and i "deleted" your number, but i put it under an unnamed contact, because i know that i will never be able to get rid of it.
not really.
kinda just like you.
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STAI LEGGENDO
Letters
Casualeletters to all of the people in my life who really count - and those who don't