No Regrets (Completed)

No Regrets (Part 2/2)

It has been a long time since I haven’t seen Andrew.

He was my ex-boyfriend. I broke up with him kasi akala ko wala ng love.

Wala na kasi akong nafee-feel sa kanya. I realized I was wrong.

I worked as desginer in Singapore for two years. Nung nag-vacation ako sa Manila, I texted him.

I was shocked when  I saw him with my ex-bestfriend.

Before we broke up, I asked him to do me a favor. 

I told him to find a girl who is better than me, fall inlove with her, love her more than he loves me.

After seeing them together, may konting sakit sa puso ko. Dapat hindi ko na lang siya hiniwalayan.

Well, it is my decision after all. No regrets.

Another 2 years passed. I resigned sa work because I want to take care of my Lolo in his last few months of his life.

Na-diagnose siya ng lung cancer. He requested for me. I was never his favorite but I know he loves me.

Saka, namiss ko na rin ang family at relatives ko. Malaki na rin naman ang ipon at naipundar ko from work.

I planned to work sa Makati. I got hired.

Work is from 8am-5pm.

Malapit lang sa bahay ng lolo ko, I can take care of him.

I tried other relationships after ng break-up namin ni Andrew.

3 relationships to be exact.

Yung una, we broke-up because I saw him with another girl. I didn’t cry for him.

Yung pangalawa, tawa ako ng tawa habang nagkwekwento ako sa bestfriend ko sa Singapore. Kasi nakita ko siyang may kahalikan na lalaki din.

Sabi ko pa nga kay Heidi “Hayup na lalaki yun. Gusto rin pala niya lalaki. Hahahahaha!”. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako tawa ng tawa nun.

Yung pangatlo, was a bit painful break-up. It was real love. Siya ang nakipaghiwalay sa akin. He said that he is not ready for a serious relationship.

He was just playing around. He is not ready for commitment. Masakit para sa akin. I was really inlove with him but I managed to move-on.

I have to move-on. Actually 5months na kami magkahiwalay and I knew I have moved on.

May nag-email sa akin.

My ex-bestfriend. Ikakasal na daw siya. She invited me.

Baka ikakasal na sila ni Andrew? That was the first thing that comes into my mind.

I said to her that I don’t know if I can come. I’ll check my sched then text her tomorrow.

I checked my sched immediately. Nothing important. I can come.

But I am not sure if I can take the pain.

I texted Angelica that I will come. She said thanks.

Nagpunta ako sa simbahan. I am too early, konti pa lang ang mga tao. Hindi ko nakita si Andrew. Pero I saw some of the abays are there.

Umupo lang muna ako sa loob ng sasakyan ko.

Marami ng dumating na ibang abay. Still no sign of Andrew.

Bumaba ako sa kotse. Pumunta ako sa may garden part ng simbahan. Maganda ang simbahan.  Perfect for weddings.

Maganda ang Landscape. It is Caleruega. Located in Batangas. I was busy taking pictures of beautiful flowers when I noticed someone was following me.

Nung tumingin ako kung sino yun. Nakita ko ang lalaking naka-barong. He was Andrew. He was smiling.

“Hi. Good to see you here. Akala ko nasa Singapore ka? Kelan ka pa umuwi?” He asked while smiling.

I said,”Hi Andrew. First of all I want to congratulate you and Angelica. You two are great. I’m here for good. Nagresign ako.”

“Ha? You got it wrong. Angel and I separated, two years ago.”

“What? Why are you wearing barong? I thought you are the groom. Angel didn’t tell me about this.”

“I was the one who introduced her to my friend. I felt guilty. I used her to forget you.”

I froze in silence. Sinabi niya na we have to go to the church because we’re going to be late.

Ceremony started. The lovely bride walked in the aisle, I can see that all of the people were crying. It was a wonderful moment.

Nung tumapat si Angel sa row kung nasaan ako nakaupo, she stopped. Nag-lip read lang ako sa sinabi niya.

—Go for it. Fight for him. Love him.—

I just smiled and said “Okay.”

Natapos na ang ceremony, pumunta kami sa reception.

Lumabas ako. Nakita ako ni Andrew na lumabas kaya sinundan niya ako.

He asked me one question. “What happened? Hindi ko ipinaglaban ang pagmamahal ko sa iyo dati. Yun ang pagkakamali ko. Pumayag lang ako sa sinabi mo.”

“Andrew, i’m sorry. I just needed time for myself. Kailangan ko rin dati ng distance. Lumayo ako sa’yo kasi alam ko na hindi ko makikita ang sarili ko

kung kasama kita. I have no regrets. I fell inlove with other guys. Pero lahat sila, wala. May hinahanap ako. Ikaw yun.”

Teary-eyed siya nung tumingin ako sa mata niya.

“Libre ka ba this coming Saturday?”

“I’m afraid yes.” Sabi ko.

“Okay.”

“But i’m free this sunday.” I smiled.

“Sunday will be our first date. Gusto kita makilala pa. Pwede ba kitang ligawan?”

I smiled, he smiled also. We hugged each other.

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