The one I loved the most

The love of my life

I feel him, I see him, I think about him everyday I wonder if he ever thinks about me the way I do. Haha I can remember the smile he gave me when I looked at him the color of his eyes shining and staring back at my soul I feel him I want him, but I know that never going to happen. My heart aches when I have that though and I tell my self " stop it, just stop " but how can I stop when he's the love of my life ? Should I just stop breathing? Should I just stop existing ? His hand the warm touch of him gives me goosebumps I feel the little hairs in the back of my neck stand up all these emotions coming out of me like a waterfall. I wake up from the dream as I'm lying on my bed I cry and I cry like I lost someone so dear to me and I did the love of my life, the person who I think of everyday gone like nothing had happened I cry and I stop because there's no more tears I cried then all out. I lost you, and I hate my self because I lost you I hate my self because I can't be with you you cracked my heart and I can't repair it. They say after a break up to follow your heart, but it was never a relationship and how can I follow my heart if there's a million pieces, which do I follow ?