Emotions (Negative)

Missing someone

Joey just ran out the door to go play with one of his friends and I couldn't help but remember last summer, when I lived with Chance. I'd stay out every night until 10, playing and chasing him around while teasing him... Every day we'd go out and buy a slurpee, it became a "thing" between us. God... Every day we'd either sit in the community room and watch movies (sometimes taking naps) or running around screaming outside in the courtyard until our manager would come out and yell at us... We'd be with each from early morning to late at night. Of course, being with each other for all summer; we'd became best friends. I remember seeing him for the first time, he was at the front table in the smoking area on his laptop playing whatever game he had on steam. He was super shy, even so far as to say he had social anxiety. My dad came over and sat in the community room with me. His dog was with him. Chance pet her for awhile and went inside his part of the courthouse. Another day after that me and another friend in the courthouse wanted to go to 7-11 for slurpees. My manager said it was fine, as long as Chance had to go. We all traveled down and made conversation on the way. I will always remember what he said, "I like your dog by the way, I would've said hi but I have real bad social anxiety. Do you wanna hang out?" Hesitantly, I said yes. We watched a movie. Of course, we hung out the rest of the week, and more. Over time we became good friends, and hung out a lot more. Sadly, all good things must come to an end... I found out he actually lived all the way on the other side of Oregon, too far for my parents to care about visiting him. He was visiting his mom over the summer, and would be leaving at the end of the summer. Can you fucking imagine how devastated I was? I was heartbroken. That's what I got for getting attached to someone so quickly, I was so stupid. I asked him about it the next morning, and he repeated what I had heard. I held back tears, obviously he saw how upset I was and tried to comfort me but I was so sad. We hung out as much as we could the rest of the week, but it all felt so.... empty? Idk... The day he was actually leaving felt like a blur, I was so angry. I went to go get Joey from summer school and came back to say goodbye to Chance. They were packing their car, getting ready to leave. We sat in the community room for a bit before Chance led me outside and chased me for awhile. I forgot he was leaving, pushed it to the back of my mind just this once so I could enjoy our last day together. He teased me and sprayed me in the face with cologne, it made me choke and laugh... Right before he left.... he asked me to give him a hug... He pulled me in and gave me a long ass hug. I waved him goodbye as he got into his car and drove off, before that I had given him a drawing, so hopefully he would be able to remember me... I went back into the house and up to my room. I didn't stop crying for days. As Joey ran out of the house tonight, I remembered Chance and had a sudden wave of grief. Every now and then I think about him and wonder if he thinks about me to... I miss him so much, I hope he misses me to...