In my eyes your heart looks frozen, just a block of ice, you no longer enjoy life am i right?
Maybe you feel you have done your part, encouraged others to stay humble and kept those you loved from falling apart.
The background noise clouded your judgment and all of a sudden your perception felt flooded.
Worthless!
Born without a purpose!
Am i?
Why am i hurting. Make no mistake i give before i take, love instead of hate. But in my mind i cant escape. My insanity forms into an unrelenting shape.
Mentally ill, overdosing on pills, clutching my head i barely have the ability to sit still. Panic just rushes in. Welcome to my nightmare, you are now entering my lions den. Uncomfortable in my skin, oh brother im at it again. I used to be so open minded, never binded to a stressing time. Hateful admiration to every single conversation.
Will i,
Make it through?
Can I?
Do i have the strength to choose? The monster lingers and occasionally points through me with freakish fingers.
What i
Does this mean just what the hell is its demeanor. Lack of oxygen i keep breathing in ether. I cant feel my legs, i cant hear the angels sing either.
We are all father times puppets dosent feel very good does it. Your voice sounds subtle, but your eyes show puzzled.
Hate.
Thats what i feel.
They,
Want to seal the deal, with deception, but i am already deceptive. Hate has filled me im no longer resisting.
My love life just goes astray every person that wants to love me i end up pushing away. They say things like it will be ok. I am with you forever, forever abd always. But i give them the cold shoulder so much they eventually go away. The friendship fades away.
Nothing left to say.
No warm embrace.
Why exactly am i this way. I live in the Depths of horror as i watch everyone i ever loved turn to evade. Love isnt real to me
Dosent seem real to me.
Dosent appeal to me.
Wasted away depression draind me of all of my energy.
I guess in other words i am my own WORST ENEMY.
