PANAMA

The Devore

As I come up stairs I hear my parents fighting I walk in the door and say, "what's going on?"I curious asked. My mom is crying and my dad is doing the same. As I ask one more time,"What's going on?" I asked the second time. Has my mom walked out of the room crying I wanted to go after her but my dad said ," Come sit down Caroline" I walked slowly to him and I pulled up a chair and I sit very calmly.

Dad tried to come up with words but every time he opened his mouth he would just shut it. Dad calmly said ,"Sweetheart you know I love you right ?" I calmly said ,"yes dad" I started to worry about hat was going on he wouldn't say it he keep closing and opening his mouth no words came out for a complete fourth-five minutes.

Dad finally said, " Sweetheart your mom and me are having issues and we can't talk to each other anymore and we have these fights over nothing" as I asked ," what do you mean y'all don't fight ?" Dad tried to explain but he was making no sense he sounded like a five year old trying to say the word football.

Dad says, " me and your mom are getting a devore we can't do this anymore" I replied," wait what why what did I do was this because I ate the last chocolate bar I'm sorry I'll buy you a new one!" Dad chuckles , " no darling you wouldn't understand what's going on between your mother and I " I just sit there thinking this can't be happening. Dad says, " you and your mother are moving to Panama Fl " I walk out of the room.

I sit on my bed thinking why do I have to move I'm fine where I am I'm 14 and I can live on my own. I could hear my mom talking to my father in the next room I could hear her saying ," when do we need to move out" dad sighs," I don't know Susan I'm not rushing you or her " then I hear complete silence. My dad said, " I wish we could of worked things out" my mom sighs ," That's the point we can't And what about Caroline she leaving her home town , her friends , her family have even though of that ?"

Complete silence......

I get out my laptop and email my best friend lillybeth. Lillybeth has been my best friend since the 1st grade and now we are in 8th . I wanted to run to her house and cry I didn't wanna leave her she's so important to me. As I message her I say," my parents are getting divorced and me and my mom are moving to Panama Fl and I just found this out an hour ago I'm so scared I don't know what to do I don't want to leave you here in New York by yourself " as I send it she replies," Caroline I'm so sorry that this is happing your moving I can't believe this It's ok Caroline I'll be fine I wouldn't be alone I have family and other friends "

I .... I was so speakless I couldn't say anything but I know she is upset so I understand why she's not interacting with me that much. I close me laptop and as much as I'm going to miss lillybeth I'm going to miss everything else I'm going to miss a lot. I can't believe all this is happening right now.

The next day I walk to the living room but I hear something down the hallway I walk very slowly and I look in my parents bedroom and I see my mom packing everything of hers up. There 2 suit cases and 3 bags with everything of hers . The closet looks so empty now just with my fathers clothes on the other side of the closet and his shoes alone by them selfs. My mom saw me and said, " hey sweetie good morning there's French toast on the counter after your done get the other two suit cases and your bags out of your room and pack everything "

I just looked at her with silence then I walked slowly Away . I could tell my dad was gone he goes to work at 5:30 . As I ate I was thinking about if lillybeth emailed me. I rushed to eat and I when to my room then I pull out my laptop and look at my inbox there's one message. It's from lillybeth it said , we can't be friends anymore we had fun times together but I can't be in a long away friendship it's over I'm sorry "

House is silent......

I readed it over,over,over,over,and over again. I can't believe this I thought she was my best friend but a best friend wouldn't do that . His wouldn't of happened if I didn't tell or that my mom and dad are getting a devores. This is not fair ...... i start packing my stuff I have everything packed now and I'm going to put it in the van . I still can't believe this is happening it's happing so fast . My mom told me we are staying on more night so I might as well have a long talk with my father.

I walk into his work office at home . I sit down and say , " we need to talk now like right now" my dad says ," I'm busy I got a lot of work to work on " I say ," is that why mom is leaving you and I am to is that why y'all are getting a devore and me and mom are moving to Panama Fl !" Dad stoped what he was doing and said ," young lady you don't raise your voice to your father " I replied," what's a father that gives up on his family and wants his family to move to Panama away from him ?!"

Complete silence......