I lay in bed, lost. I'm fighting but I'm loosing. My life is a constant battle and I always feel like the only one dealing with it. I know that there are others but no one matches me. I'm different. I'm "unique." Or so they say...
I'm not here in my spirit. I am in person but my spirit is at a constant war against depression, anxiety, pain and hurt. I'm having to deal with constant attacks and from out of no where too. It's getting to the point where I don't understand but I don't care. Yes, that's a horrible things to say, but honestly, if you were in my place, would you feel the same? Constantly battling depression and the side effects of it...after a while things just start to lose their color. It's horrifying when your favorite song comes on and you don't have the heart to sing along. And yet it happens.
I'm just hoping I'll be able to fight this again. It's been a long enough day already. What else should I do...what else can I do....
