Haushinka

part 1/5 - the eve of my birthday

I woke up at 7AM to the disturbing sound of my alarm clock. I didn't even realize it was my birthday yet. I've always loved Fridays. But not Friday mornings! So I tried to continue sleeping, but it didn't go well. I decided to get up and have breakfast. I was hungry as hell, since I didn't eat dinner last night. I went to the kitchen and searched for something tasty. I found coffee and some cheap biscuits. Generally I hate that kind of biscuits but I was so hungry so I ate them all.

"Happy birthday, my little son!" my mom said. I got scared because I thought she already went to work and I was rolling a joint when she called.

"Is it my birthday?" I asked. I was very tired and confused, because I didn't know where to hide the weed so I was holding it in my hand.

"Don't act stupid, Billo! I made a sandwich for breakfast, for my 17 year old son" she said kindly.

"Jesus, Mom" I said and picked up my food with my other hand. I ran to my room and finished rolling the joint. I made a few more too, because I was sure someone will buy. I picked up my backpack and then I walked to school.

"BJA! Happy birthday!" Mike said and pat on my back. He is my friend since childhood, we also have a band called "Sweet Children". Our first EP will come out in a few months. We already recorded it in December.

"Hey, Mike" I shouted, though he was standing close to me. Our first class started soon so we ran into the building.
Our classroom was so dirty, no one cleaned it. It always smelled like shit. I took a seat next to Mike. The teacher stepped in and everyone stood up. To be honest I almost slept while I was standing. This teacher is a fucking nightmare, I would put 409 in his coffeemaker. He is boring and always complains. I don't even care about his personal life, I don't give a shit about his "too beautiful" ex-girlfriend. I just want the class to end and I finally can smoke some weed with Mike.
The class ended and we were going to the bathroom with my mate when I saw a hot guy sitting on a chair. I felt so weird because I've never talked about my sexuality to anyone. I think everyone was born as a bisexual but the community makes the most of the people straight. This is really sad and I feel bad about not telling it anyone. I know right, I have to talk about it soon.
We went out from the bathroom completely high. But fuck, it's my birthday, I can do anything. I was chilling, Mike wanted to say a joke but he laughed so much so he couldn't tell it. We finally sat down in the classroom and I started eating my sandwich. I also put some weed in it because why not? Cheese is too boring.

"What's up, Billo?" Mike asked. I didn't hesitate, I told him that I already needed.

"I'm coming clean. I'm seventeen today, we're old enough to talk about it." I started easily, I chilled because of the weed "I saw a hot guy in the school. I wanna kiss his ass"

Mike laughed, and said: "Dude, are you serious?"
"Yes, I am" I didn't laugh, but I wasn't upset.

"So are you gay?!" He whispered.

"Hell, no! I'm not. I'm a bi. But I think it's normal" I said. It felt a bit weird to talk about this in a public place, but I didn't even care.

"Cool. Otherwise, what's our next class?" Mike asked.

"Maybe math, but im not sure" I said.
I was right, it was math. Mike was looking at me at the whole class. I felt confused but it was alright. I told him I don't have a crush on him and he totally calmed down. Honestly, sometimes he acts so obvious.
On afternoon the band came together to play a bit. I was thinking about writing a new song but I didn't tell them yet. I recently broke up with my girlfriend and I still felt the pain. My mind played with me. Once I wanted to be with my friends and don't think about girls, once I wanted a kiss so badly. John, our drummer told some jokes to us but I just sat there patiently. I wasn't sure what to do on my birthday. I still felt the weird feeling about the coming out but it was ok.

"Hey, Bill, what do you want to do tonight?" John said. "We should make a party at my flat, I can invite a few people"

"I don't know, man. Isn't it too late to invite them? It's 4pm already, and people are so busy on Friday nights" Honestly, I wanted that party. But that last minute idea was so dangerous. What if only a few people will come over and they don't have fun?

"Trust me. I can invite anyone" John said. He is an ambitious person, he can really do anything. He knows a lot of people (so as me), so I said yes.

I went home and took a nap. I forgot to turn on the alarm clock and of course I accidentally woke up at 7:50pm. Cool. I had ten minutes to take a shower, dress up (I was wearing underpants) and go to John's apartment. My mom wasn't at home but she took the car so I had to walk. It wasn't far away but the walk takes 15 minutes. I was definitely late.
I arrived at 8:20pm at my own birthday party. I felt kinda annoying because of that.

"Hello, Billo!" Mike shouted. "Oh man, this party is awesome. I still can't believe John invited a lot of cool people!" Me neither. The house was full of hot girls and guys and punk music was playing. John did a great job. Though I didn't know most of the people, I felt satisfied. Half of the people were already drunk and high, the others just had fun. I went to the kitchen and opened a beer. It felt like home, it was awesome. I've always loved parties like this, but that was for me and I felt wonderful.

"Attention! The birthday guy is finally here!" John said to the mic. I waved just to make sure everyone knows who I am. I just realized there were too much people who didn't give a shit about it. They went here just for free drinks and stuff. Okay, I didn't expect gifts or anything but I wanted them to know why are they here, so I screamed:

"Who wants free weed from the birthday guy?"
And it went out well. Everyone was looking at me.

"Haha, of course you won't get anything for free. But hey, I'm the birthday guy and that's why y'all are here! If you don't give a shit about me, please go out and do not drink my own beer!" I freaked out, and I knew it wasn't a good idea. I wanted a good party, but it seemed like a party without any reasons, just for fun. A lot of people went home, but some stayed here. There were still crowd and I was looking for familiar faces. I saw a girl from my school so I decided to talk to her.
"Hi, what's up, Polly? I didn't see you a long time ago!"

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Author's note:
I don't speak English fluently, that's why my story may have grammar mistakes. Feel free to correct me anytime.
p.s: the book cover is just a joke, Mike is not Haushinka