Stop.

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My alarm clock rang.
It was around 12 am.
Jenn would be back in LA in about 4 hours.
She was visiting her family for Christmas.
I was kinda sad when she had told me,
"Not yet."
but what was I supposed to do?
I can't force her to do something she isn't ready to do, especially if she doesn't feel safe doing it.
I'm so torn.
She's really filling my lungs up with flowers.
It's beautiful, but I can never seem to breathe.
Oh well, it's time to get ready to pick her up, and then we can have our Christmas together.