I tried to rush home as quick as I could, everything was not fine no one understood.
Everything was not as I thought it would be, I imagined myself barely breathing.
Just how was it supposed to be, when I took the rope out it took me a minute to repeat.
Looking down at myself how was I supposed to see, I know I'm being selfish and all but I didn't want to breathe.
Let me put everything behind me as I proceed.
The words were clear, the blood on my hands terrifed me, but I got over it.
My mind wasn't fine, I didn't know what I was doing, yet it felt great and satisfying.
I wish I could turn back the clock and do it over again, but I can't because it's a sin.
I'm sorry I was so selfish, I went and left everything behind knowing darn well it wasn't going to be fine.
