sincerely. (a fan fiction between tordkink (may) and tordful (cake) 💕

awaited writing

May's POV:
I felt dizzy. A kind of dizzy I cannot describe. When I had awoke this morning, I was love struck with a feeling that only captures your image. A dazzling gleam that only your heart can give. The day I had reached out to her was the best day of my life. Every message filled my heart with more desire for you. Any time I spend with you always means something. As of today; me and you have been a couple for about a month and a half. I couldn't ask for more. I just want to see you. I just want to kiss you without anyone looking. I was filled with lust. Only, for you.

Ever since that day I had
been waiting. Only waiting for another letter to arrive. The first letter that arrived has very little writing, in which blossomed in my heart. Those words echoed inside me. "please await more letters. I will send one by day. until the ink runs out. my love please don't go. stay with me, please? that's all I could ask. -sincerely." I didn't know if this was a call for help, or just a letter telling me to talk to her more. I dropped to the hard floor and stopped. My thought ran out. Everything stopped. Every moment we shared has come to this. These letters might be the best thing, or the worst. I couldn't think at all. My mind was cluttered with things replacing you. A silent tear ran down my cheek. "dammit" I stood up and ran to my room. I didn't even bother to shut the door. How am i supposed to receive a letter without tormenting myself. Will this happen everyday?

*ding!*
I turned my head over to look at phone vibrating from my new text. "cake" I thought. I swiftly grabbed my phone and opened it as quickly as possible. I immediately smiled at the thought of you. "hey bf ;)" you wrote. I had giggled a bit and lightened up as I typed my reply. "those letters won't stop coming until I meet you."
"okay. did you need to talk to me about something?"
"no, I just can't handle my parents right now, they keep getting worse and worse."
"I'm sorry love. I wish they weren't so hard on you. can't they just learn to leave you the fxxk alone?"
"I don't know when they will learn to understand me anyway. I'm not worth their time."
"Yes you are. That's why they need to pay more attention to you. I'm so happy they gave birth to you or else I would probably by now be dead."

I had talked to you
almost all night. how are you so lovely? how do you fill my heart with such compassion for you? I almost couldn't bare it. Since we had been talking all night, she might have forgotten about writing. But I love her letters and I want all of them memorized. The fact that she writes them to me is a blessing. How can she be so kind?  I just hope you are safe. Please write me again soon my dear.