inside you are different from others.... you show that your strong but inside your weak, your smile is there but not for long... what once made you happy begins to taunt and haunt you while you sleep. feeling so drained and weak. as you struggle to push on with this fake casing over your heart and mind, you begin to think.... the way your feeling is it worth your time? to sit back and act as if your fine when your really not to try to fit in when you know you can't. to smile on the outside but die inside. see no one knows what your really feeling... because the fear keeps you from fully opening up.... your mistakes you push down deep, weather your fault or not.
your hearts going colder and colder the more you be what your not. you be been taught to talk about how you feel and yet as the days go on none of it feels real.... the dreams are getting worse by the night... leaving you to scream in utter fright, because they have this effect of mixing with reality.... and breaking you down even further internally...
crying for help day in and day out, just going about it without having to scream and shout is becoming more and more easy.... not one person you call a friend or loved one even thinks your in pain... maybe that's why they call you insane.. holding it all in bottling it all up isn't what should be done but, you do it anyway and go about your day as if all is dandy and you can have fun... when deep inside you know you're falling to pieces.
each step you take and every eye contact you make, thoughts run through your head..... I wonder what they thought of me? but then again so no really wanna know... deep inside you die while the fake smile brightens others day you can't help but look in the mirror and say.... " take me so all this pain goes away".
